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was a bit jealous of her because Mom loves her so,
so much. Mom gave me a fat slap and I guess I deserved it. The baby didn’t hurt
me. But boy, Mom did.
    Thursday 8 August 1985
    Well, we have finally moved again and I really miss Rochelle.
Now we are all staying with Adrian’s sister, Rose. Mom says we needed to have a
place with clean water for the baby. Rose’s son is Damon.  I can’t stand
sharing this house with Rose and Damon.
     Damon has yellow hair and pale green eyes.  He is three
standards ahead of me. He touches me just like Steven used to do. What is wrong
with boys? Mommy leaves me to look after the new baby and then Damon touches me
in the places my costume covers. The teacher once said those are private
places.  Damon is MUCH bigger than me and I am afraid of him. I said I will
tell and he said he will tell them I am a liar and they will believe him
because he is older. Damon also has books with rude pictures. I hate Damon.
    Mom never did anything about Steven so I didn’t tell her
about Damon’s touching. I was too embarrassed.
    I guess that when Dad heard Anthony and me talking about
having no clean running water at home and going to the neighbours for food, he
must have called in the welfare.
    I do remember him asking us if we wanted to live with him.
Certainly his home was infinitely better than Mom’s, so I guess I said yes.
It’s all rather a blur now but I remember some women coming to talk to us and
then  a man in a dark suit made me write my name on some documents before the
end of the school holidays.
    We went back to Mom and Adrian’s place when term began but a
few days later a letter arrived in the post. I remember Mom read the letter to
herself over and over and then raged at me. I’d no idea why – after all I hadn’t
sent the letter! She said I’d rejected her and hurt her feelings and if we
wanted Dad we could have him. Well, at least we got to move away from Rose’s
house and disgusting Damon.
    We moved in with Joanne and Dad and living with them was
quite nice to begin with. We each had our own room and Dad had a pool and we
got toys and new clothes. Then Anthony had to move out and share my room while
Joanne prepared his room for the baby. I thought that was unfair as the baby
could have had the sewing room. After Susie was born, Joanne became less
interested in us and seemed to get mad at me for everything.
    Joanne and Dad decided that Anthony was going to attend a
government co-ed school down the road but I had to go off to a Convent. When I
asked our neighbour’s six year old daughter who attended the Convent what it
was like, I heard her say, “It’s got only girls and nun teachers.” Perplexed, I
wondered how a school could have no teachers. In retrospect, that would have
been funny if my reality of the school and the nuns had not turned out to be so
awful.
    Friday 25 September 1987
    Life with Dad and Joanne is not going well. Dad and Joanne don’t fight
the way Dad and Mom used to, but Dad is really mean and bad tempered. I seem to
make him angry all the time and he beats me often.  When
he leaves bruises he says I can’t swim at school. Last week he wrote a note
that said my costume was lost and the teacher said I could use a spare school
costume. I said ‘no’ and so the teachers now think I’m cheeky. I just
have to take whatever punishment the gym teacher has up her sleeve on those
days.
    At home Joanne is spiteful to me and her words are cruel.
    Now some other stuff is starting to happen to me – stuff that
upsets me  –  stuff that happens mainly in the night. Stuff like Damon did. But
worse.
     One day, after a Religion class about confession, I mustered
all my courage and tried to tell the nun about what was going on at home. I
stayed back after the class had been dismissed and asked the nun if I could ‘confess
something’.
    She looked at me suspiciously and immediately I wished I
hadn’t said a thing. She crossed herself and said, “What is