and kissed and tasted.
First love was usually intense. For her it had been that and more. With Del, for the first time in her life sheâd allowed herself to hope she might not have to go it alone. That maybe, just maybe she could believe that someone else would be there for her. To look out for her. To give a damn.
âTo start with, I can cook,â he said, drawing her back to the present. âThere was a last-minute cancellation so I got the cabin.â
A couple of little boys played down by the water. Their mother watched from a blanket on the grass. Their shrieks and laughter carried over to them.
âItâs going to be noisy,â she said.
âThatâs okay. I like being around kids. They donât know who I am, and if they do, they donât care.â
Some people would care
, she thought, wondering how difficult his version of fame had become.
Heâd made a name for himself on the extreme sports circuit. Crazy downhill snowboarding stunts had morphed into skysurfing. Heâd become the face of a growing sport with the press clamoring to know why anyone would jump out of a plane with a board attached to their feet and deliberately spin and turn the whole way down.
After a few years of being a media darling, heâd made yet another change, designing a better board, and then starting the company that built them. That move had made him more mainstreamâat least for the business crowdâand heâd become a popular guest on business shows. When heâd sold the companyâwalking away with cash and not announcing what he would doâheâd become the stuff of legends. A daredevil willing to take life on his own terms.
Sheâd wanted that once. Not the danger, but the being famous part. It would have been one of the perks of being in front of the camera instead of behind it. For her it hadnât been about money or getting a reservation at a popular restaurant. It had been about belonging. That if others cared about her, she must have value. Be worthy, in some small way.
Time and maturity had helped her see the fallacy of that argument, but the hollowness of needing it had never completely gone away. With that dream over, she would have to find another way to make peace with her past.
âWhat are you thinking?â he asked.
She shook her head. âNothing. Iâm getting way too philosophical for this early in the morning.â She sipped her coffee. âSo youâre back for the rest of summer and youâre going to be helping me with the promo videos. I appreciate that.â
He gave her a look that implied he wasnât buying that.
âI do,â she repeated. âYouâll be a great host.â
âIf you say so.â
âI do.â
He studied her. âIâm back because my dadâs turning sixty and I havenât seen my family in a while. What are you doing here?â
A direct question. She decided on a direct answer. âI was tired of what I was doing. Iâd made my third and what will be my final attempt at a network job.â She drew in a breath. âThe truth is I donât translate well on camera. On paper, I should be exactly right. Iâm attractive enough and intelligent enough and warm enough, and yet it simply doesnât work. Going back to producing hard news was an option, but I couldnât get excited about it. I was visiting my stepbrothers and while I was here, Mayor Marsha approached me about the job. I said yes.â
The offer had been unexpected, but she hadnât taken long to accept. Getting out of LA had been appealing and being close to family had felt right. Sheâd never considered that Del would be coming back.
She glanced at him from under her lashes. Would that have made a difference? She told herself it wouldnât have. He was only home for a few weeks. She could manage to hold it together for that long. Besides, the tingling was probably a onetime