the twisting mountain roads to Cedar Hill and the same amount of time going back Sunday night, and so, start work on Monday exhausted. When he left that job for another in Tullahoma, Tennessee, they did not see each other for months at a time.
Of course she hadnât felt she was very important to him. Who could blame her? And of course sheâd complained. Who wouldnât? People married because they wanted and needed to live together. If you loved someone, you wanted to be with them; it was as plain as day to her, and she told him so. But who would have expected him to show up with an ugly purple house trailer, as though that would solve everything? As though that didnât involve leaving her home, her friends, and everyone sheâd ever known. As though it didnât involve taking James out of school and away from everything he loved. Edward Tally was an inconsiderate man to the marrow of his bones, and you could teach a cat to sing quicker than you could show him that and make him see it.
She hated living in a trailer. Hated having to put on a house-coat and slippers and sometimes a raincoat to walk to the bath-house in the middle of the night to use the toilet, or to go all that way to take a shower or wash her hair or do the laundry. The trailer wasnât the least bit snug, as he often claimed with a twinkle in his eye and a grin on his face when the rain was lashing it with a sound like gravel being thrown against its side and the wind was fairly making it rock. And who could make love with any joy and peace when James was only a few feet away and nothing but a thin plywood partition like the bellows of a concertina between them? Oh, but sheâd been unhappy. And unhappier still when heâd finally had his way and sold their home in Cedar Hill, which theyâd been renting out and which heâd allowed them to believe theyâd return to. And he hadnât put the money back toward the better house theyâd buy someday, as heâd promised, but had bought himself a fancy 1941 Packardâand would have bought a new one, no doubt, if there had been any new cars to buy. And heâd taken to coming home one or two nights a week definitely tipsy, with no regard for her and the dinner sheâd made. And he could see no harm in it, as though it were only a boyish prank or a working manâs innocent due. What did he care that sheâd been worried out of her mind that he was dead on the highway or that the supper sheâd cooked him had been kept warm until it wasnât anything more than a drab mess in her pots and pans? Earlier in their marriage heâd only rarely done that sort of thing, but toward the end she never knew when to count on him. And likely as not heâd try to tell her heâd only just had a couple of beers and the time had just slipped past him. As if she hadnât lived with him long enough to know how much alcohol it took to put that glazed look in his eye.
And there were nights when he didnât come home at all. At midnight or maybe one or two in the morning sheâd get a call from one of his construction buddies sheâd hardly met or never met, and this strange voice would tell her heâd had a little too much to drive, but theyâd see to it that he got to work the next day, and heâd be just fine. Sure, sheâd see him the next afternoon shuffling up with his hat in his hand, they would say, as though they, too, were telling her about a schoolboy prank, as though it were funny and innocent or even, somehow, endearing.
Sheâd got so sick of it that sometimes she really didnât mind so much when heâd quit one job for another and leave her and James for months in one strange city while he went off to the next. Theyâd fought until, at last, they didnât fight anymore, or make love anymore, or even talk, so that when he said he was going to Pittsburgh, sheâd said that was fine, because she and