hurtle into an enormous room with equally spectacular amounts of ornate mouldings and
actual
mould on the walls.
Sheâs wearing old boyfriend jeans and her favourite pink Arran knit jumper. Her blonde-white hair is piled up on top of her head with a pencil stuffed in it, holding it all in place. Against one wall is a bunch of big boards, filled with sketches and designs and swatches of paint and fabric. On the dusty but lavish mantelpiece sits Mumâs iPod dock, and White Star Lineâs single â âTurn the Cornerâ â is blasting from the travel speaker.
â
Turn the corner
,â Mum carries on with the chorus, arms now outstretched, doing RJâs line.
â
Take my hand
,â I sing, jokily holding my hand out to Mum. She grabs it, even though itâs a bit sticky with chocolate and marshmallow gloop.
â
Turn the corner
.â Mum pulls me to her.
â
Donât be scared
,â I sing, mock sincere
.
â
Turn the corner
.â Mum tilts her head, stares lovingly at me.
â
Iâll be THERE!!
â I do that last bit in a dumb, over-the-top, operatic voice, and we both fall about laughing.
Then Mum lets go long enough to walk across to the fireplace and turn the volume down on the next track so we can hear each other talk.
In that tiny moment alone, I gaze around at the echoing, tatty room and my spirits sink again. Whatâs Mum done taking us â dragging
me
â here?
â What made you stick that song on?â I ask her. âMissing your husband, Mrs Johnstone?â
My words are jagged with a hint of sarcasm. I canât help it.
ââMrs Johnstoneâ⦠Ha! When will I get used to that?â Mum laughs, blissfully unaware of my barbed tone.
Itâs funny to think this is now Mumâs third surname. She started out as Sadie Price, was very, very briefly Sadie Harper (when she married my dad), and now sheâs Sadie Johnstone. There are still plenty of Prices in our family â Granny and Uncle Ben and his family, who all emigrated to Australia â but now Iâm the only one called Harper, since my dad doesnât count. That suddenly feels a lot like lonelyâ¦
âAnyway, yes, Iâm missing RJ, but thereâs plenty to be getting busy with here!â Mum replies, spinning around in her white Converse trainers, as happy with the prospect of doing up this dump as a little kid being locked inside Legoland for the night.
I donât join in with the spinning; instead I stare some more at the state of the broken-down room, and think that itâll be a long, long time before Mum can get busy with details like paint and fabric. And itâs just as well RJ is away working; camping out in the servantsâ quarters isnât exactly rock ânâ roll, is it? Plus I get Mum all to myself for just that little bit longer. We might be in the wrong place, but if I try really hard, maybe I can make-believe that itâs just me and her against the world, same as itâs always beenâ¦
âAnyway, enough of the house. How are you feeling?â Mum asks as she twirls her way over to the floor-to-ceiling, rotting French windows and pushes them â with a struggle â wide open.
âBetter,â I tell her. âMaybe I just needed a good sleep.â
To be honest, I havenât slept well for weeks, with the upheaval of Mum and RJ and their whirlwind romance. Though, when I think of it, itâs been longer than that. I havenât slept well for months, really.
âGood, Iâm glad!â Mum smiles, stepping out on to the terrace. âYou must have been exhausted after yesterdayâs drama, Ellis.â
âMum, it was hardly a drama,â I say, following her and crossing my arms against the brisk, chilly Scottish wind thatâs penetrating my layers of clothes. âI was only out for a couple of minutes.â
âA couple of minutes too long for my