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fascinating.
                  Kevin looked down at his hands as if the answer was somehow written there. “It gets a little easier each day.” He let out a sigh and took a sip of his drink. “Sometimes I feel like he's here with me. You know, like watching over me. Does that sound weird?”
                  “Not at all,” I said giving him a sympathetic smile. I felt that way, too, sometimes.
                  “Plus this helps,” he said holding up his cup.
                  I took the cup Kevin was holding and took a sip, instantly spitting it back out. I remember that putrid taste – Chloe’s concoction. “Uh…how can you drink this?”
                  “It’s rancid. I know,” he chuckled. “But it does the job.” He took a sip and made a face. “On second thought,” he said pouring the rest of it into the lake as we both laughed. “You have a beautiful smile. You know that?” He tilted his head slightly and looked at me. He had a strange look in his eyes.
                  “Thanks,” I blushed. “You know Kyle used to –” before I had a chance to finish my sentence he kissed me. I pushed him away stunned. “Kevin!”
                  “I’m so sorry…I…I don’t know what I was thinking.” This was so unlike him. I’ve known him and Kyle since I was five and Kevin was always the rational one. He never made crazy decisions or rash moves. I was so beside myself I didn’t know what to say. “Shit, I’m sorry. I really messed up didn’t I?” he said, embarrassed.
                  “It’s okay,” I said trying to make him feel better. “Don’t worry about it. It was nothing. Minor lapse of judgment,” I joked hoping to relieve some of the tension. The more I thought about it, it really was nothing. I knew deep down Kevin wasn’t the type of guy to take advantage of me. I knew he was hurting and just looking for comfort and at that moment I was the closest thing.
                  “I can see why Kyle loved you so much,” he said.
                  We sat there for a moment in awkward silence.
                  “C’mon, let’s go back to the party and get a real drink.” He laughed as he stood up and then helped me to my feet.
                  “There you are!” Marissa called as she stood at the tip of the dock. “I’ve been looking for you everywhere. Where have you been?” I turned to Kevin and gave him an apologetic look before wandering off to find Josie.
                  I found her inside dancing with a few of our friends. They looked like they were having fun so I walked over to join them. Josie embraced me in a tight hug when she saw me. “You okay?” she asked, wondering how my talk with Kevin went.
                  “Yes. Yes I am,” I smiled feeling good for the first time tonight. I thought having to face my past would be a bad idea, but it ended up giving me some closure. Something I never thought I could get and now that I did I could look forward to all the great things to come in the future. I knew I would never forget Kyle and I knew a part of me would never stop missing him, but I had to move on. I wasn’t ready before, but I think I am now. Feeling more at ease, I closed my eyes, and swayed my hips to the music and just let myself go.
     
    Josie and I spent the rest of the night dancing and hanging with old friends. I ended up enjoying myself and was glad I came. Sometime around 1:00 am, I called Dean to come pick us up. I did not want to wake up my mom this late; even though she told me to call her no matter what time it was.
                  After I hung up the phone with Dean, I stayed outside, and waited while Josie flirted with one of the many boys she met tonight. I caught a glimpse of her through the open door. She was laughing and playfully hitting the guy she told me earlier