never have.â
Zeke stood and switched places with Mahir at the window.
Mahir whispered, âThe dust died down.â
And so it had. Zeke didnât like it. If Mongers were in the area, the dust told him they were about a mile away. But no dust didnât necessarily mean they were gone. It could mean they were closer. Or coming from another direction.
Raoul continued, âI figured the best way to keep Katashi from doinâ somethinâ stupid was to make him tell me the whole thing again from the beginning. I told him I was sorry about calling in sick without really being sick. It wasnât like we both hadnât done that before, but we always told each other. Anyway, I ordered some food because I knew he needed to eat and I wanted to keep him away from the booze. Then I called Benita and told her I was going to sleep at his place.â
âItâs a good thing he did,â Katashi said.
âI think so too,â Raoul said, âbecause I was there the next day when Mrs. Meeks called and said the Thorppes wanted Katashi to come to the funeral a few days later. No way he woulda done that if I hadnât talked him into it.â
âFor sure,â Katashi said. âAnd no way I would have gone if you hadnât gone with me.â
âI had to drag you there, dude.â
âIt meant so much to us,â Alexis said.
âIt was the hardest thing Iâve ever done,â Katashi said. âEverybody knew who I was. Thereâs nothing worse than a funeral with a tiny casket, but to know youâre the reason and that everyone else knows too . . . Oh, it was awful. I wanted to crawl in a hole.â
It was hard for Zeke and Alexis too, of course, though Pastor Bob had preached a message on salvation, as they asked, including Juniorâs last words that though he was scared he knew he would soon be in heaven with God, âbecause of Jesus.â
âThat was the first time Benita and I had ever heard anything like that,â Raoul said. âAnd we went to church a lot, you know? All our lives. In Mexico and when we moved to Angelino Heights. We believed something like that, but not that. It wasnât
because
of Jesus, but because of usâwhat we were trying to do for Him. We talked about it all the way home and all week, about what we would have said if we were the ones dying. We woulda said we
hoped
we were going to heaven, God, because we tried really hard.â
âI was listening too,â Katashi said, âbecause Elaine had explained it all to me, and Pastor Bob was making it clearer. But the whole time I was dreading going to the cemetery. I wanted out of that, because I would be standing shoulder to shoulder with all these people again, and I didnât know if I could take another minute of it.â
Elaine said, âYou asked me if I thought the Thorppes would mind if you slipped away after the service. I told you theyâd forgiven you for something much more serious than that, but that they
had
asked you to be there, and didnât you think you owed them at least that much?â
âWell, that put a new spin on things. I owed them whatever they asked. I said I would stay if Raoul and Benita went with me, but that didnât stop people from just pushing past them and talking directly to me. It wouldnât have surprised me to be glared at, cussed out, even spit at. Who knows, maybe someone would take a swing at me.â
âYou had
no
church experience,â Pastor Bob said.
âNone at all. And everybody who said anything just told me how nice it was that I came, and they told me they were praying for me. For
me
! It was almost too much.â
Raoul told how the company put Katashi on desk duty during his suspension while they waited to see if they would be sued. âWhen they let him back in the truck, he didnât never want to drive again. We used totrade off every day, but now I drove all the