great sense of humor. Maybe thatâs past tense. I donât know at this point.
âYeah. Most Saturdays,â I said. âI like the quiet of it. Before the rest of the world wakes up.â
You looked at me then. Really looked. Your blue eyes have this way of seeming kind of intense, you know. Not in class, but when it was just me and you and you let your guard down, let me see who you really are. Youâre more flippant in public, but that quiet sincerity of yours took over when it was just me and you.
âI know what you mean,â you said. âItâs relaxing.â
âExactly.â Weâd been hiking a few minutes, and our breathing had grown labored. We were only halfway up the mountain, but I made up my mind I would keep up with your long strides. Youâre at least six inches taller than me, so it was no small feat (feet? Ha ha, get it?), but I couldnât stand the idea of falling behind like some silly kid left in the dust. âHow about you? You come up here a lot?â I asked.
âIâve been hiking it every weekend, but on the other side,â you said, jutting your thumb over your shoulder.
âThe road?â
âYep. I didnât even know there was a trail on this side, until I was standing at the top last week and someone appeared on the opposite side, where the trail emerges.â
âItâs prettier,â I said. âIâve always preferred this way.â
You nodded. âYeah. I like this side better.â
You were talking about the trail, but I imagined you meant something about me, too, like you enjoyed hiking together.
âCan I ask you a question?â you said.
âSure.â
You glanced over at me, still breathing hard. âMy class seems easy for you. You were the first one done with that pop quiz. Howâd you get to be so smart?â
I smiled and looked down at the trail, concentrating on putting one foot in front of the other. âI donât know. My dadâs a PE teacher at Enumclaw High School. Heâs really driven, wants me to succeed. Heâs always been there if I needed help, and I knew what the expectations were. If that makes sense.â
You blinked. âWow, did that suck? That you went to school with your dad there?â
Two things occurred to me in that moment:
(1) I wanted nothing less than to talk about my father with you.
(2) Youâd asked that question in past tense, because you assumed I had graduated. But it was past tense, Bennett. It still is. I was never going back to high school because I was in college. Maybe I didnât have a diploma yetâI wonât for two more yearsâbut I was in college, and thatâs what mattered.
Thatâs why, when I answered, you have to know I wasnât lying to you. I know it was still a deception in every way that matters, but I liked the way you were talking to me. Like we were equals, just a boy and a girl on a hike.
They say we werenât just a boy and a girl but a man and a girl, and so they should know that when I responded, I led you to believe Iâd graduated. It was the first of so many half-truths. Just remember, Bennett, that at this point I still never dreamed youâd come to care about me, that weâd really become something. I just wanted someone to talk to me like you did. Someone who didnât see me as the same old bookworm, too studious, the wet-blanket sort of girl, but instead could build a whole new picture of me based on what I told him.
Thatâs what I wanted. To paint my own picture for once, instead of taking over the one my parents had so carefully outlined.
âIt was kind of unfortunate,â I said, laughing like it was no big deal. âIâm just glad that part of my life is over.â
âI bet,â you said.
âWhatâs your dogâs name?â I asked, desperate to change the subject as I watched him walk right into the trickling creek