was.â
âIâm so sorry, Alfred,â she said, and sounded like she meant it too. Then she changed the subject.
It wasnât until sixth period, right before the final bell rang, that something odd about that whole encounter struck me: the lunch period for seniors was thirty minutes after mine.
That afternoon I saw Ashley on the way to my bus.
âHey, Alfred,â she said.
âHi, Ashley,â I said.
âWhere you goinâ?â
I pointed at the bus. She said, âYou want a ride?â
âReally?â I couldnât have been more surprised if she had asked if I wanted another head.
âReally,â she said. So I followed her into the senior parking lot and climbed into the Miata. Ashley tended to drive too fast and tailgate, but the top was down, the afternoon was sunny, and she was tan, so I could live with it.
âWe had this neighbor in Ohio where I grew up,â I said, raising my voice to overcome the rush of wind. âThis old lady who took in every stray dog in the neighborhood.â
âWhy?â
âShe felt sorry for them.â
âYou think I feel sorry for you?â
I shrugged.
âDonât you think youâre a little young to be so cynical, Alfred?â
âGirls like you donât usually notice guys like me,â I answered. âMuch less eat lunch with them and give them a ride home.â
âMaybe I think youâre interesting. Hey, Iâm starving,â she said. âYou want to swing through Steak-N-Shake?â
She didnât wait for an answer but pulled into the drive-through lane and ordered two large chocolate shakes, two double burgers, and two large fries.
After our order arrived, she pulled into a parking place beneath the explosion of red leaves of a Bradford pear tree. The milk shake made me shiver and gave me one of those stabbing pains behind the eyeball. Ashley ate that burger and those fries like she hadnât eaten in weeks. She wasnât the first thin girl Iâd known who could do that.
âYouâre really tan,â I said. âArenât you afraid of getting skin cancer?â
âI live for the sun,â she said, which I took to mean she didnât give a flip about skin cancer.
âMy mom died of skin cancer,â I said.
âYour mom is dead too?â
I nodded. âMy mom. My dad. My uncle.â
âI guess Iâve lived a sheltered life,â Ashley said. âIâve never had anything like that happen to me. I mean, your mom and dad and your uncle.â
âOh, it was more than just them. Iâve lost count now. No, thatâs a lie; I count âem up all the time. Iâve never told anybody this except my therapist, who doesnât count, but I died too.â
âYou died?â
I nodded. âYeah, but I came backâonly sometimes I feel like a zombie, but I donât have any interest in eating people and I dress better. I guess thatâs the price I have to pay for sticking around. You know how spiders eat by sucking the juices out of their prey? The body or husk or whatever stays, but all the lifeâs been sucked out. Thatâs how I feel. Husk-oâ-Kropp.â
She took a long pull from her shake, studying me over the straw.
âAlfred,â she said softly, ânothing ever stays the same. Itâll get better.â
âHow do you know?â
âBecause youâre a knight. One of the good guys.â
I wanted to believe her. There were no knights left, but plenty of good guys.
Thinking of knights reminded me of Bennacio, the Last Knight, and his daughter, Natalia, who was the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. She had kissed me the last time I saw her. I thought about Natalia a lot, wondering where she was and if she was okay, because she was an orphan now like meâbut mostly because she was the prettiest girl I had ever seen.
We drove back to the Tuttle house. Ashley put her