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suddenly. “I would want to experience all that is possible in the marriage bed.”
    Julian shut his eyes on a sudden vision of Henrietta sprawled naked in a bed . . . in his bed. He envisioned her with hair undone, arms stretched above her head, round white breasts exposed in invitation, and a sultry smile softening her quirky lips. He stifled a groan, wishing he could eradicate these lurid thoughts. She was one of his best friends for God’s sake.
    He sat in silence, watching Henrietta pluck each petal from the hapless flower. He’d known her his entire life, but it was as if he were seeing the real Henrietta for the first time—the spirited, passionate young woman whose spark would soon be extinguished if her life did not change. Gazing at her now, he wondered why the devil she hadn’t wed.
    Then again, since she’d come of age, most marriageable prospects had been off fighting Napoleon. She should have been happily married to Thomas Wiggington by now with a brat settled on her hip. Of all women, Henrietta deserved most to know a man’s love and devotion. He’d vowed to keep Thomas safe the moment he learned of his friend’s intentions toward Henrietta. There were no two people he cared more about, and who deserved happiness more than Thomas and Henrietta. But it was Thomas who had taken the bullet and fallen at Albuera—due to Julian’s dereliction. He felt another flair of guilt, deep and sharp in his gut, for his failure to bring Thomas home to her. And because Julian had failed, Hen now had her mind set on spinsterhood.
    “What is it like?” she suddenly asked.
    “What is what like?” he replied carefully, wondering how the devil to extricate himself from this damnable line of conversation.
    “Coupling with another,” she said.
    “It’s impossible to describe,” he replied. “There is no other comparable experience.”
    “Then I don’t understand why so many women regard it as an unpleasant duty.”
    “Perhaps some are soured by a clumsy first experience or by a selfish or insensitive lover.” 
    “I know the first time can be painful, but what do you mean by selfish and insensitive?”
    “Must we continue this conversation, Hen?” he pleaded. “It’s damnably awkward.”
    “Why?” she asked. “I have questions, and you have answers. There is no one else I can ask about these things. Do you honestly think Harry or my mother would tell me anything?”
    “What about your married sisters?” he suggested.
    She bent to pick another flower. His gaze lingered on the outline of her arse. To his chagrin, he was once more feeling stirrings below. Why was he having such lustful fancies about Henrietta when he had a willing mistress to warm his bed? Maybe that was the trouble? He’d been too long away from Muriel. But Muriel wasn’t the one currently inspiring his sexual fantasies.
    “They would only blush and titter and speak in euphemisms,” she continued. “All I want is to understand what I would be giving up if I do not wed.” She lowered herself to the grassy bank and cast her gaze out over the shimmering water with a sigh. “They say one does not miss what ones does not know, but I don’t think that’s really true, do you?”
    “From a man’s perspective, you would be right,” he agreed. “The sexual drive is very strong in men. We instinctively know what we are missing.”
    “But women don’t?” she asked.
    He tied the horses and sat down beside her. “Perhaps some do,” he agreed. “But those are generally women who make themselves available to satisfy men’s lust.”
    “You speak of prostitutes? But I thought you said any woman could enjoy . . . coupling.”
    “It depends on both the man and the woman,” he said. “If a man only seeks to satisfy himself, she is unlikely to experience any pleasure.”
    “So a man must desire to please a woman?”
    “Yes, Hen.”
    “Oh. That’s interesting. I didn’t know that. Does it also hurt a man the first time?”