like my insides were in a whirlwind with Jake at the center. This man was choosing of his own free will to stay with me. I was the luckiest girl on earth.
I felt guilty listening in so I snuck into the shower but not before catching Jake’s eye and smiling from my heart. Never had I thought there would be someone, let alone someone as incredible as Jake, in my life. The petals of the flower had ended on ‘he loves me’ and I made the decision to never let him regret his decision.
I finished my shower and found Jake in the living room just hanging up the phone. The pure look of happiness was enough to tell me that we would not have to spend a day apart this summer.
Jake explained that his mom had remembered what it was like to be young and in love and she could clearly see how happy Jake was with me. Unfortunately his dad was not as understanding.
His dad had worked very hard to be as successful as he was and all he wanted was for his children to have more than he did and not have to work as hard to get it. He was also very old fashioned and had seen to it that his wife never had to work outside the home. This meant that he had replaced the memories of his early love of Claire with memories of responsibilities.
Our saving grace came when Lily, who was evidently eavesdropping on the conversation, suggested that Jake take some summer classes, which would allow him to spend the summer on campus near me. Even Jake’s dad could not argue with furthering his education. He finally caved and agreed to pay for an apartment for Jake during the summer that Lily could move into once the school year began.
Once his dad gave the thumbs up we did not waste any time in registering Jake for a few general electives he needed and combing the newspaper for available apartments. Jake being able to have his own apartment was the perfect way for us to ensure that we spent every night of the summer together without the prying eyes of our sorority or fraternity sisters and brothers.
The apartment Jake finally decided on was in walking distance of Greek row and had a fantastic claw foot bathtub I was already planning on pulling Jake into the first chance that I got. He did not have much in the way of stuff to move in so by the next afternoon he was settled. I brought a good portion of my clothing and such over to Jake’s but I maintained my place at the house for appearances sake.
We spent the rest of the summer playing house. I was living at Jake’s apartment, unbeknownst to his parents, and we spent every day in stupid, crazy love. Making love in the kitchen while cooking breakfast, walking each other to work and class and long baths followed by gentle loving filled our days. While passionate, often tear your clothes off sex filled our nights.
It was almost too much for me. On one hand I was ecstatic and full of love for Jake and our promising future. I could not describe how Jake made me feel. He touched me and I was instantly on fire and when he looked at me I felt my heart open fully to him.
On the other hand I was still harboring my childhood fears of abandonment and rejection. Jake was wonderful at easing these concerns but my scars ran deep and most of the time I only pushed my feelings into the recesses of my mind instead of finally letting them go. I knew it was a Band-Aid and that someday I would have to actually deal with my past, but at that time I chose to be in love.
Summer’s end was closing in and the Petrillo final Labor Day weekend bash at the shore was looming. Jake’s parents had personally invited me and this time around so I did not hesitate. There was no possible way I was letting Jake out of my sight for even the weekend.
Before we left we had to determine the living situation for the upcoming school year. Since Jake was the President at OX he was supposed to live at the fraternity house but as long as he kept a room there and attended all the house functions it was