said.
âSort of jagged bits, like this, only dark. In the middle I saw the accident.â
âSuppose you really could see whatâs going to happen next?â
âI donât want to. It was a lousy thing to happen.â
âBut suppose you could see something nice? Like who won the Derby. Weâd all get rich. That wouldnât be bad.â
âIt wonât happen again.â
âYou mean you hope it wont.â
âIt wonât.â
Mrs. Stanford came in and sat down.
âMight just as well not have cooked any dinner for all the appetite you two had. Three-quarters of it gone into the dustbin.â
âYou didnât, Mum! Waste,â Chris said.
âToad-in-the-holeâs never the same warmed up. And donât you say Waste to me. You should have eaten it, if you didnât want it thrown away.â
âCouldnât. Not if youâd paid me.â
âUpsetting, seeing an accident,â Mrs. Stanford agreed.
âVicky saw it twice.â
âWhat do you mean, saw it twice?â
âSaw it before it happened.â
âYou didnât, did you?â her Mum asked Vicky.
âI donât know.â
âBut Vicky, you said. . . .â
âI could have made a mistake, couldnât I?â
Chris always knew when Vicky didnât want to go on talking about something. She got up now from the table and said, âAll right if I wash my hair now, Mum? Will you come up and rinse me when Iâm ready?â
âYou washed your hair two days ago. Whatâre you doing it again for now?â
âWasnât two days. Was Wednesday. Thatâs three.â
âOnce a week used to be good enough for me when I was a girl.â
ââFriday nightâs Amami night. Take me out and make me tight,ââ Chris sang. Adding, in her ordinary voice, âLaurieâs coming to take me out tonight, thatâs why Iâve got to wash my hair.â She ducked her motherâs pretended swipe and left the kitchen laughing.
âWell, I donât know.â Mrs. Stanford said. She looked again at Vicky, sitting across the table and said, âWhatâs up, love?â
âNothing.â
There was a pause, then Mrs. Stanford said, âIt was the accident, was it?â
âMade me feel shaky, a bit.â
âIs that all?â
âMm.â
A pause.
âVicky? Thereâs something wrong, isnât there?â
âI just donât feel too good, thatâs all,â Vicky said, looking at the table instead of at her mother.
âIs it the old thing?â
âWhat old thing?â
âYou know. Worrying about your father?â
âNot specially. Not more than usual.â
âIâve often thought he very likely didnât know.â
âDidnât know what?â
âAbout you. Your mother might not have told him.â
âWhy wouldnât she?â
âGirls donât always. Not if theyâre not seeing the fellow any more, I mean.â
âShe didnât tell you?â
âNot really. There wasnât all that time. She went so suddenly. That morning sheâd been all right, as far as anyone could see. That evening sheâd gone. Haemorrhage, it was. They put six pints of blood into her, but they couldnât save her.â
âDid she think about what was going to happen to me?â
âShe did once say she wished someone like me could look after the baby. Not thinking it would be me, I donât think.â
âWas it because you and she were in bed next to each other?â
âI sâpose thatâs how we started talking. And she liked the way I made a fuss of Chris. Cuddled and talked to her. Silly, I suppose. Some of the mothers in there, they hardly used to look at their babies. Couldnât wait to get out of hospital, put them on the bottle and hand them over to someone else. Perhaps it was because