through with this.â
âYeah, I told you I was. I gotta get thirty students to sign it, and so far Iâve got one. Me.â
Cory handed me the clipboard. âJesus started with five loaves of bread and two fish, and He fed the multitudes. Iâm sure you can do it.â
The headache Iâd started to get during lunch faded. I loved it when Cory believed in me. âHey, since I got you here, would you sign â¦?â
The next bell rang and she ran off. âGonna be late for lunch!â she said. âCatch me later.â
I waved as she disappeared around the corner. I wished we had the same lunch period. With her at my side, I bet I could have gotten more than thirty signatures.
I took my seat in English and waited for Mr. Olson to pass out the exam. But my head wasnât there. I needed twenty-nine more signatures. Mrs. Carney thought there was a way to do it. I just needed to figure it out.
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ouâd think that with all the time I spent in the vice principalâs office, I was some kind of public menace. At least, thatâs what most of the faculty thought. I never got why the stuff I did to end up in the office was considered âmaking trouble.â I had opinions, and sometimes I expressed them. Very loudly.
I was never disrespectful. But if Mr. Olson said we couldnât read
The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn
because it contained the N-word, I would explain that the book was a product of its time and was antislavery in many ways. I expressed lots of opinions like that about the books we could and couldnât read. And sometimes, instead of having an intelligent conversation about it, the teacher would get upset at the girl with the pierced lip and send her to the vice principal.
So, it was really weird to be in Mr. Winstonâs office without having done a thing. I just got a note when I went to homeroom: PLEASE REPORT TO MR. WINSTONâS OFFICE. I thought maybe it was because Iâd laughed in Olsonâs class. But as much as Olson hated me, I knew he wouldnât send me here for something like that.
âAm I in trouble?â I asked.
Winston had invited me to sit across from him at the desk but then hadnât said anything. He just sat there.
âMs. Mendoza,â he said, âIâm told you recently asked for paperwork to start a GayâStraight Alliance in school. Is that true?â
Oh.
That.
âYes, Mr. Winston. Itâs my understanding that any student can petition to have a special-interest group started at school, provided they follow procedure. And thatâs what Iâm doing.â
Winston nodded. âAnd you really think thereâs enough interest here? I mean, I donât know any other gay students apart from you.â
I bit my tongue. He was baiting me. Practically challenging me to lose my temper. No way would I give him the satisfaction.
âIâm out and proud, Mr. Winston. Sure, everyone knows Iâm queer. Just like everybody knew Jamie Ballard was queer. And look what happened to him.â
Suddenly, the baiter became the baitee. Winstonâs face flushed, and he shook his finger at me. âNothing has proven that Jamie Ballard was bullied. I wonât have you spreading rumors â¦â
âIâm not spreading anything, Mr. Winston,â I interrupted him gently. âBut kids are being bullied, and itâs happening whether theyâre gay or not. You can get bullied in this school if people even
think
youâre gay. A GSA would send the message that being queer is okay. It would tell queer students that theyâre accepted. And it would tell straight students who are accused of being gay that they shouldnât be ashamed.â
Winston stewed. He couldnât do much more. I wasnât speaking loudly, just firmly. I looked him right in the eye and was careful not to look angry. He couldnât do anything to me, and he knew it.
He leaned back in his chair.