my hand and suddenly there was a clatter of chairs and an empty table in front of us.
We sat down.
The people at the next table shifted too.
I gave them one of my notices as they went.
The people at the other tables watched me out of the corner of their eyes and muttered to each other.
We slurped for a while and I wondered gloomily if itâll take me as long to get used to the sound of muttering as it takes people who live near the railway to get used to the sound of trains.
Then Amandaâs face lit up.
âThe dribble,â she said with her hands.
I stared at her blankly.
âLast night,â she continued. âYou were upset about the dribble.â
I didnât want to hurt her feelings, so I chose my words carefully. I told her it was really thoughtful of her to use her hands so the other people in the milkbar couldnât eavesdrop, but that unfortunately I didnât know what she was talking about either.
She shook her curls, cross with herself, and tried again.
âThe speech,â she said. âYou were upset about the speech.â
Even before her hands stopped moving I knew that was it.
Last night, before the party, the Social Committee changed their minds about me reading our speech to Ms Dunning. They reckoned if I read it with my hands and Amanda repeated it by mouth itâd take too long.
I was really hurt and disappointed, but I had an apple fritter and got over it.
As least, I thought I did.
Obviously deep inside I didnât.
Deep inside I must have wanted to push the whole Social Committee into an apple-polishing machine, but because an apple-polishing machine was too heavy to take to the party, I chucked the Jelly Custard Surprise into the fan instead.
Itâs scary, but at least now I know, which is a big relief.
âYouâre right,â I said to Amanda. âThatâs it. Thanks.â
âIt must be pretty frustrating sometimes, having bits missing from your throat,â said Amanda.
I nodded.
I wanted to hug her, but she was still slurping and I knew that if I made another mess my name would be mud in this town for centuries.
I should have guessed Amanda would come up with the answer. Sheâs an expert at working out why people do things. When Iâd nominated Ms Dunning as Australian Of The Year, Amanda had twigged straight off. âItâs to put her at her ease, isnât it,â sheâd said. âShow her you donât mind her marrying your dad.â Amazing. I hadnât even given her a hint.
And now, even more amazingly, sheâd worked out something I didnât even know myself.
I gave her a grateful grin and we sat there slurping. Until an awful thought hit me.
âIâve been frustrated heaps of times,â I said to Amanda, âbut Iâve never chucked a dessert before.â
We looked at each other and I could tell from her face that she was thinking what I was thinking.
What if somethingâs snapped in my brain?
What if I could chuck something at any time?
Without knowing in advance?
Iâll never dare do the eggs again.
Or carry out a chemistry experiment in class.
Or handle nonwashable paint.
My life will be a disaster.
I could be sent back to a special school.
Suddenly I knew what I had to do.
Amanda agreed.
We said oo-roo and I hit the road.
Iâve never walked home from town so fast, but you canât hang about when youâre in desperate need of help and thereâs only one person who can give it to you.
The person who was told last year that if he didnât start controlling himself and staying out of fights heâd be in deep poo and whoâs managed it so well this year that he hasnât had a single major outburst apart from putting peanut butter in Trent Websterâs ears which doesnât count because Trent provoked him.
I can hardly believe Iâm doing this.
Asking Darryn Peck for help.
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I knew exactly where to find him.
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