had
ceased to exist and I was falling forever.
"I don't think I should kiss you," I
said, laughing, giddy.
"Oh?" He smirked. "Why
not?"
"That was very strong. I felt heat--a
lot of heat--and it felt nice but I couldn't think straight for a
second. I've never felt that way before."
"That's curious," he said. "I
wonder... what if I kiss you?"
I didn't know. I didn't know but I
wanted to know. I was no stranger to kissing, but I hadn't ever
kissed someone like that before. Who knew that a casual, thankful
kiss on the cheek could feel so passionate? That was the only word
I could think to describe it, like the fire of pure arousal licking
at my lips.
"Sorry," Evan said. "I didn't mean
that in a flirtatious way. I was just thinking out loud.
Hypothesizing, if you will. I do that a lot now. Trial and error,
right? It's a good way to educate yourself as long as you're
careful."
"Oh," I said. I wanted him to kiss me
now, though. Was he going to?
He gazed at me, into me. Our eyes met.
I hoped he saw something nice in my eyes, something he liked. I
definitely liked his eyes. They were a sharp, piercing blue and
reminded me of something I'd seen recently, but I couldn't quite
remember what.
Bang! Bang! Slam!
Jumping up, startled, I looked towards
the front of the library where the noise came from. Evan stood with
me, taking a place right next to me.
Staring at us through the library's
front windows was a small group of the others. They slammed on the
windows, trying to crack them open and break in. If they kept it
up, they probably would, too.
"They shouldn't be in here," I said.
"How did they get in? There's a chain on the front
gates."
Evan sighed. "I broke the lock to get
in here. I thought if I left the chain in place no one would
notice. I guess that didn't work out."
"I know you want to help them," I
said. Forcing myself to focus through the intense warmth, I placed
my hands on Evan's face and made him look at me. "You need to run,
though. They want to kill you."
"I know," he said. "It's
alright."
Dashing a few steps away, leaving me
cold and alone, Evan ducked under the library table and grabbed
something from beneath it. When he returned and stood up, he held a
crossbow and an arrow quiver full of bolts in his hands.
My mind reeled and I stared at him,
conflicted. "Evan, you can't. Please, don't kill them. You need to
run to safety."
He flashed me a grin while strapping
the quiver and crossbow to his back. "No one's going to get hurt,"
he said. Without warning, he swooped forward and took my hand in
his. "Let's go."
"What do you mean let's go?" I
asked.
I asked him this, but I was already
going with him. Evan ran through the library towards the back
entrance with me in tow, squeezing my hand for good measure. My
legs felt slow and unsteady, but he helped me whenever I took a bad
step and nearly slipped. I followed him like a ship guided by a
lighthouse, the ever-present heat of his fingers offering me a
breadcrumb trail out of this screwed up fairytale
forest.
Peeking over my shoulder, I saw the
others chasing us. One of them stood at the window still, slapping
on it with his bare hands, but the remaining four must have found
the front entryway into the library. They hobbled past the
turnstile, getting stuck in its slim path, but not for long. One
made it through, then another, the third and fourth. None of them
waited for each other, though.
They ran towards us in a shambling,
awkward gait. The look of confusion on their faces contrasted with
the decisive look in their eyes. They didn't want me--I was nothing
but competition to them--but Evan's blazing heat was like the
promise of a goldrush in their minds.
I understood now; I did. I resisted
the urge to partake in the barbaric, seemingly-mindless onslaught
of the others, though, no matter how many times I saw it or heard
it nearby. Confused and lost, I wanted to retain whatever part of
me I could. I wanted to care and have concern no matter how broken
and