plate.
âWhoâs the joker?â he asks Lizzie, gnawing on my squid. âFriend of yours?â
âHunter,â Lizzie says. âPlease.â
âHey,â he says, looking at me, taking another piece of squid from my entrée. âWhatâs with the tie? And whatâs with the pig, man?â
I smile, put on a hand on Clint Eastwoodâs head.
âHey you,â he says. âIâm talking to you. Speak English? Talk American?â
He tears off a piece of squid with his front teeth. I canât stop staring at his powdered nose, the bulge of his hairy, sun-burned chest. Iâm hoping he chokes.
âYouâve really outdone yourself this time, baby,â he says to Lizzie now. âBut thatâs what I love about you. Your unpredictability. Your wicked sense of humor. Didnât know you went for mute tards with pet pigs.â
âJesus.â
âOh, Lizzie,â he says, feigning tenderness, reaching out to take one of her hands. âIâve missed you so much. I hate it when you just leave like that. Iâve been worried sick about you. Iâm sorry about last night, okay baby? Okay? Iâm really sorry. But it was just a misunderstanding, you know? Jerry and Billyboy over there can testify to my innocence. You know how Thai girls get when weâre around.â
âWe can talk about this later, Hunter.â
âYes,â I interject. âI think you should talk to her later.â
He just stares at me with that stupid white nose jutting out between his eyes. For a second, I think Hunter might throw the squid at me. But then he just pops the rest into his mouth, turns to Lizzie, and says with his mouth full:
âYou fucked this joker, didnât you?â
I look over at Lizzie. Sheâs staring at the table, tapping her fingers lightly against the wood. It seems sheâs about to cry. I stand up, throw a few hundred bahts on the table. Clint Eastwood follows my lead, rises clumsily to his feet.
âIt was a pleasure meeting you, Miss Elizabeth,â I say, smiling. I want to take her hand and run back to the motel so we can curl up together on the beach, watch the constellations. But Lizzie just keeps on staring at the top of that table.
I walk with Clint Eastwood back to the motel. Weâre the only ones on the beach. Night is upon us now. In the distance, I can see squidding boats perched on the horizon, searchlights luring their catch to the surface. Clint Eastwood races ahead, foraging for food in the sand, and Iâm thinking with what I suppose is grief about all the American girls Iâve ever loved. Girls with names like Pamela, Angela, Stephanie, Joy. And now Lizzie.
One of the girls sent me a postcard of Miami once. A row of palm trees and a pink condo. âHi Sweetie,â it said. âI just wanted to say hi and to thank you for showing me a good time when I was over there. Iâm in South Beach now, itâs Spring Break, and let me tell you itâs not half as beautiful as it is where you are. If you ever make it out to the U S of A, look me up okay?â which was nice of her, but she never told me where to look her up and there was no return address on thepostcard. Iâd taken that girl to see phosphorescence in one of the Islandâs bays and when she told me it was the most miraculous thing sheâd ever seen, I told her I loved herâbut the girl just giggled and ran into the sea, that phosphorescent blue streaking like a cometâs tail behind her. Every time they do that, I swear Iâll never love another, and Iâm thinking about Lizzie and Hunter sitting at the restaurant now, and how this is really the last time Iâll let myself love one of her kind.
Halfway down the beach, I find Surachai sitting in a mango tree. Heâs hidden behind a thicket of leaves, straddling one of the branches, leaning back against the trunk.
When we were kids, Surachai and I used