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you. Yes, he made mistakes when you were a kid. Shit, he made those same mistakes with us. At one point the streets was his life and that’s all he cared about. Yes, our father smoked crack but he always tried to keep that shit away from our mothers. Now just because your mother decided to smoke with him one night doesn’t mean anything. Yes, he would have been in your life but how do you explain to your daughter that her…you know what, why don’t you go talk to him and attempt to understand instead of judging him like you are now? Yeah, he has money now but Kayden and I grew up in the same projects as you. Now get out of the car.” She gave me a look that broke my heart; a look that said there was more to the story as to why she didn’t want to see him. I looked at Jordyn and let out a sigh. “What’s really the problem, Jordyn?”
    “I just want to know why he didn’t love me. Why was I put on the back burner when he knew I existed? Why wasn’t I a priority in his life? Why is that he waited 16 years and 11 months to meet me, to see my face? Answer that for me. Or maybe you could tell me where he was when creepy old men were sneaking into his 7-year-old’s room trying to feel up on her and rip her of her innocence. Can you give me those answers? No, you can’t. Neither can the stupid letter he wrote me, either. So what, your mother was ashamed to walk around with the side bitch’s daughter around. So what, he got caught up and needed to lay low. So fucking what. The whole time he was doing those things, who was put on the fucking back burner? Me, not you, not Kayden. Shit, he’s done more for your best friend Trey than he has for his daughter. So yeah, I’m a tad bit salty but so fucking what,” she said as she wiped her face, got out of the car, and started walking down the driveway. Shit, I fucked up. That’s what you get, Jayden. Always opening your mouth. I slammed my fist into the steering wheel and got out of the car. I walked down the driveway to find that Jordyn had already disappeared.              
    Chapter 5:
    I walked until I was able to get in contact with my best friend, who arrived just as quickly as I called her. Even through our rough patches she was always there for me, no matter the situation. The whole ride to my house was silent. I didn’t say anything about what happened. We pulled up in front of my apartment and I thanked her for the ride before getting out the car. I walked into the house to find it empty. It wasn’t unusual to me but the note taped to the refrigerator door was.
    Dear Jordyn,
    I know I haven’t been much of a mother to you but I’ve decided to work on myself. I know you probably hate me but Jordyn, I’m sorry. I found your stash in your pillowcase and took the money. I’ll pay you back. Jordyn, there are some things that I would love to tell you that I know you won’t understand. I’m sorry that I never gave you the chance to meet your father and form your own opinion but I couldn’t bear seeing him. For the first three years of your life he was a part of it. Once he decided that he didn’t want to be with me anymore I couldn’t stand to look at you. I mean you’re his twin, his mini. Jordyn, he loves you. He really does. But at one point in life we both chose crack and the streets over you. I can’t write how many things I want to say sorry for but one thing I’m sorry for is not letting you know that your mother loves you. I’m sorry for all the men that I let touch you, Jordyn. I pray you forgive me and understand that I made a lot of mistakes when raising you. Shit, I had just gotten out of college when I had you, but that’s not an excuse for my mistakes.
    Sincerely, Your Mother, Tinker
    I read the letter one more time, trying to understand what was really going on. I couldn’t believe my mother had just up and left with the little bit of college money I’d managed to save up. I looked inside the fridge to find it empty. I walked