sorry.â He shook his head. Heather had no idea what he was sorry about, but she immediately felt her heart drop down into her stomach. Good Lord, this was bad.
âWhat?â she said, trying to mask her concern.
âIâm sorry, I just have to askâ¦â
âAsk
what?â
she whined inadvertently.
âOkay,â he said, planting his elbows on the table with a confrontational glance. âWhen I found you here last nightâ¦â
Oh God. Busted. Totally busted. Heather grabbed her lukewarm latte and guzzled half of it down, looking for a calming jolt of caffeine. He knew sheâd been waiting for him. He must have known that sheâd been on a five-hour stakeout for him. She might as well have had a huge pair of binoculars hanging around her neck, a pith helmet, and a group of resentful natives carrying her supplies. Sheâd fallen down into the ranks of the hunter-explorer girls. The millions of non-self-respecting Stalker skanks across the nation who lived for no other purpose than to entrapsome unsuspecting
dude
and seduce their way into last-resort-late-night-hookup status with him.
âI just donât understand,â Josh went on as Heather cringed internally.
Go on. Say it. Just say it.
âI donât understand what a beautiful girl like you could have possibly been doing alone at Starbucks last night.â
Heatherâs head suddenly felt much lighter. Another compliment. Not the end of the line. Could she be any more sensitive? Any more of a full-blown loser?
Relax, girl. Youâre Heather Gannis, for Godâs sake. Never to be confused with the pathetic hunter skanks of the world.
She tried to shake off her panic as quickly as possible, hoping it hadnât shown through her long-rehearsed emergency smile.
âCome on, tell me the truth,â he said with a sly grin. âDid you
just
break up with your boyfriend or something?â
She was so relieved to be undiscovered that she didnât even bother holding back with her answer. âWell, not exactly
just,â
she said, without even thinking. She guzzled some more latte to ease her sudden dry mouth. âIt was a little while ago, but
after
we broke up⦠he kind of moved on to this other girl I know.â
Ugh. That had been unpleasant to say out loud. Did Josh really need to know this?
âOoh,â Josh groaned with a comic wince. âWere you, like, good friends with this other girl?â
âNo.â
Heather laughed, looking more and more at her coffee. âFar from it.â
She found herself wondering what Ed and Gaia were doing at this very moment. The last time sheâd seen them, Gaia had actually gone pretty much berserk in the cafeteria, spewing out a totally uncharacteristic jealous tirade at Ed and her new Russian roommate (or something), Tatiana.
Watching them fight could have provided some kind of weird relief for Heather, as if maybe things werenât so damn heavenly in the world of Ed and Gaia. But the fact was, watching Gaia go nuts on Ed and Tatiana had only made Heather feel worse. Jealousy. It was the ultimate proof Heather had needed. If sheâd had any doubts, now she knew for sure that Gaia was in love with Ed. Only love could make a girl go off on someone like that.
So what were they doing at this moment? Theyâd probably made up already. And two people are never more in love than when they make up after a fight. They make up. And then they have the makeup hug. And then the makeup kissing.
And then the makeup sex.
Thatâs probably what they were doing at this moment. Having wild, passionate makeup sex.
Whatever. She doesnât deserve him. She doesnât deserve to know what it feels like to be with him. I was his
first.
Thereâs nothing anyone can do to changeâ
Whoa, Heather. New leaf! Where the hell is your new leaf?
Right. The new leaf that Heather had worked sohard to turn over. She was through with resentment,