Mexico, and they donât believe in letting their enemies live.â
âI donât understand what that has to do with me or Magdalena.â
âNeither do the Mexican police or the DEA. Itâs what theyâre hoping to find out.â
âWhat do you mean?â
âExactly what I said. The Mexican Panthers are quick to murder enemies, but theyâre not known for taking out innocent people.â
âYouâre not implying that Magdalena and I were involved in the drug trade, are you? Because if you areââ
âIâm not implying anything. Iâm telling you what the police are probably thinking.â
âThen, theyâre thinking wrong.â
âMaybe. Or maybe thereâs information that you know nothing about. Something that might have led the Mexican Panthers to you and your friend.â
âLike?â
âItâs possible Magdalenaââ
âNo way.â There was absolutely no way that Magdalena was involved in drug trafficking.
âHear me out, Jenna.â He leaned close, his dark eyes staring into hers. Were they brown? Dark blue? She couldnât tell, and she was tempted to move closer, look more deeply.
She leaned back instead, unsettled in a way she hadnât been in years.
She didnât like the feeling.
Didnât like it at all.
âSay what you need to say, Nikolai, but it wonât change what I know about Magdalena.â
âItâs possible your friend wasnât the person you thoughther to be. She may have had secrets she couldnât share with you.â
Magdalena had seemed tense in the weeks leading to the trip, but Jenna had chalked it up to stress. Was it possible something else had been weighing on her mind?
Jenna shook her head, denying her doubts as much as she was denying Nikolaiâs words. âEveryone has secrets, but Magdalenaâs werenât the kind that get people killed.â
âThen perhaps Magdalena got in the way of a transaction between someone she knew and the drug cartel. Is it possible someone working at the clinic was trafficking in narcotics?â
âI donât know. There were fifteen people on our medical team, and Magdalena is the only one I knew.â Jenna shook her head, wincing as pain shot through her skull. Her stomach heaved and she swallowed hard. No way did she plan to lose her lunch in front of Nikolai. She bent forward, trying to ease the nausea, wishing her thinking was less muddled. Maybe Nikolai was right and someone at the clinic had been involved in drug smuggling, but she couldnât think of who it might be. Couldnât even begin to imagine any of the volunteers stooping so low.
Nikolai touched her knee, his fingers warm through thick denim. âWhy donât you lie down? Iâll make some more phone calls. Perhaps the police have new information.â
âIâm okay.â She straightened, sweat beading her brow as her stomach heaved again.
âYouâre as pale as a ghost.â
âSo maybe I should have said that I will be okay.â She stood, swaying as she took a step toward the window.
Her vision seemed to be clearing, the steroids the doctors were pumping into her doing their job. God was in control, and everything would work out okay. It was a mantra that sheâd repeated to herself often during the two years sheâd fought leukemia. Chemotherapy had sapped her strength, turned her into a person she didnât know, and sheâd had to remind herselfevery day that sheâd be herself again when it was over. When it finally was, when sheâd thought she would celebrate with longtime boyfriend Ryan Mayer and had, instead, listened as heâd told her how much he cared about her and how sorry he was that heâd fallen in love with someone else, sheâd reminded herself that she would be okay. Her hair would grow back, her body would be strong again, her heart would