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admitted, “But in a good way. Why?”
    I smiled as I moved over her settling between her legs. “Because I want you again,” I answered. She moaned and I claimed her mouth.
    I loved her clear into the early morning hours before we drifted off to sleep. I loved this woman lying next to me and I planned to marry her.
    When I work the next morning, she was gone. I sat up calling out for her and was met with silence. I didn’t understand why she would leave. I thought we were fine. I guess I was wrong.
    I was hurt and pissed when I pulled up in front of the house. She was going to talk to me and tell me why she left. However, when I entered the house I found that she was not there.

Chapter Six
    I Deceived Myself
     
    I was such a damned fool. He said he cared, not that he loved me. He sang that song and I believed what I wanted to believe. I gave myself to him, all of me. I can’t look at myself in the mirror let alone look at him.
    ‘Why is it so difficult for him to say it?’ I wondered. Then I stopped and remembered what he said, he was scared. He knew years ago that he wanted me in the forever kind of way. That had to mean he loved me. He was waiting for me to say the words so he could feel safe opening his heart to me.
    I sat there in the parking lot of a motel and hit the steering wheel. “My God,” I screamed, “I can’t believe I left him!” How could I just walk away like that? The tears I had tried to control for the last several days spilled from my swollen eyes. My heart was breaking and this time it was my fault.
    He was telling me he loved me, but because of my pride, I felt rejected again. ‘If I went back, would he forgive me?’ I wondered. ‘Would he give me another chance?’ Well, I wasn’t going to just sit here; I needed to go home. Dean was my home.
    It took me over an hour when I pulled on to the road that led to the ranch. My nerves were on edge and I felt sick. I had been gone for five days, and today was Thursday, Dean would be riding in the rodeo tomorrow night.
    I shook my head and wiped a tear away. I was so stupid for leaving. I was so worried about my own heart that I never considered his. I was selfish and now I needed to face the music.
    I stopped in front of the house and killed the engine. I sat there staring out the windshield watching Dean work on the fence in the distance. He stood, turned, and looked at me shielding his eyes from the sun.
    Shaking his head, he dropped his arm and turned back to what he was doing. I hurt him. I knew I had and I wouldn’t blame him if he was pissed. “It’s now or never,” I said as I exit the car and started walking to him.
    I was standing behind him watching him work. He knew I was there because his shoulders stiffened as I approached. I opened my mouth to speak, but he cut me off.
    “It’s one thing to walk out on me,” he said in an angry and hurt voice, “It’s another to do it to the parents. No phone call or note; you were just gone.” He stopped working, stood, and turned to face me.
    The light in his eyes was gone. Instead, his eyes were swollen, red, and empty. His lips were turned down. “Why Katy? Why did you leave me?”
    A tear escaped. “Dean,” I said reaching for him. He brushed me away and shook his head.
    “Stop,” he choked, “I don’t want to hear your lies. If I mattered at all to you, you wouldn’t have left. It’s the parents you need to see. Now go and leave me be.” He turned back and started to work again.
    I gasped and ran back to the house. I deserved what he said, but damn it, it still hurt. I do care about him. How can I make him see it?
    I reached the door and wiped my face. I walked in to see both moms sitting in the living room. “Where are the dads,” I asked taking a seat on the love seat.
    They smiled sadly. “They are out working,” my mom answered. “We have a confession to make.”
    “Confession,” I questioned.
    They nodded. “You see,” Dean’s mom joined in, “We set you