Accelerated, aggressive reflexes. Correctly channeled, SUBJECT could prove Useful to Society. Unheard of development considering her status as Offspring Waste.â
Reading this, Iâm surprised I hadnât been thrown out the gates to mutants.
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The Caretaker looked at her holofile, then back at me. âYou already have a name,â she said, surprised. âHow very odd . Iâve never seen one of you already having a name. Who gave it to you?â
âI donât know,â I said.
Later, Iâd find out they didnât assign names until weâd assimilated from Infant Surveillance to Intermediate Dorm. Never knew how weâd react to the dorm transition. Some didnât make it through the first night, so why waste a good name on a defective orphan?
âWell, you always were . . . different,â she said, like I had an extra foot or something. âNow you are Lexie. Say it after me. Lex-ie.â
âLex,â I said. That sounded better.
âNo. Lex- ie . Thatâs what it says right here.â
âLex,â I said again.
She sighed, knew it was pointless to argue. She practically shoved me down the corridor to be issued my thermasheets. Relieved to see me go, I could tell. Now Iâd be someone elseâs problem.
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Lex or Lexie, it didnât matter. No one learned names in the Intermediate Dorm. The closest you got to existing was your cot number.
My real new name? 242.
The dorm was enormous. Cots as far as you could see. Lots of kids, all bigger than us new transfers. All wearing the same gray uniforms on their skinny bodies, their skin colorless from lack of exposure.
No one noticed our arrival.
Even with all those kids, the dorm was dead quiet. We were still little, didnât know orphan rule #1: Donât draw attention. Not that I followed rules. But still, I could tell this place wasnât like Infant Surveillance. Not at all.
Orphan rule #2: Donât ask questions . I could never get that one either.
It was the first week and 241 had been right next to me at evening cot confinement. Iâd heard her snoring. Come morning, every trace of her was gone, even her thermasheets. âWhereâd she go?â I yelled.
No one answered me. Just looked away. âNew transfer,â someone whispered.
âWhereâd she go?â I said louder. Sharp stares. Pale faces pinched in worry.
That just made me want to scream. I raised my voice. âWhereâd sheââ
âShhhhhhhh.â Someone placed a hand on my shoulder. An older girl was leaning over, smiling at me. Iâd noticed her before because, unlike the rest of us, she had some color. Like she was glowing from the inside.
The older girl looked down at me. I shut up. Her smile was what did it. You didnât see those very often.
âI like you,â she said softly. âYou say what you think. But right now, you should know when that becomes dangerous.â
âBut where didââ
My stomach growled.
âYouâre hungry?â she asked.
I nodded. Little kids, I quickly learned, got pummeled in the rush to the ration line. As hard as Iâd pushed through the crowd, the food was gone when I got there. With so few caretakers, no one seemed to notice. Or maybe they just didnât care.
Sometimes little kids starved to death. It happened once in my first year there, a little boy who didnât wake up in the morning, and caretakers just carted away the husk of his weightless body.
So that morning the older girl took my hand and led me right to the front of the line, other kids stepping aside for her. I was starving and by then completely forgot about my neighborâs empty cot. Kids are dumb like that. Easily distracted. Maybe she did it on purpose. Maybe she didnât want to tell me about 241 just yet. The older girl was eleven, a year shy of graduating.