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the crying start all over again. And the pee also, down my knees, no matter how hard I try to keep it in. That is when Frans put his arms around me and start to rub my back, my back and my arms, and at first I try to stop him, but soon I no longer try, and I can feel his arms moving all over my body, first my back and my arms, then down across my stomach and between my legs and between my buttocks, everywhere, while I just cry and cry, and his hands keep moving. And after some time I no longer cry, and I just let him do whatever he want, now I can feel him pushing into me, into the deepest deepness of myself, and then he begin to shake like a sheep that got its throat cut, and then I know that this is it, he is
naaiing
me, and I cannot and will not stop him any more, I just go on crying in his ears, no, no, no, crying no, no, yes, yes, yes, and then I no longer know or care what is happening. That is how it happen every time from that day on. If I start crying he will push himself into me, until I no longer care any which way, I just do whatever you wish, you are the Baas, just push into me, I no longer want or wish anything, just stay inside me, just keep on, don’t stop.
    And from this beginning what happen for us is not just the thing in the bamboo copse, but everything we do, everything we say, everything we think about. It is the thing, Ouma Nella tell us, that we call love. And not just because it make his thing stand up and push into me, but because we want to be together, he and I, and because he care for me and I for him, and because the world can only happen for us because we are together.
    And I think that is why, when we are together and he move into me, that he keep saying, Philida, I shall care for you, I promise you, I shall make it worth your while, I shall make sure that you’re made free, I’ll talk to Pa, and to the Landdrost, and to everybody in the whole wide world, from Zandvliet all the way to the Caab, I promise and I promise and I promise, from now on you are mine, for ever, for us there will never be a slave and a baas any more, just you and me, I promise and promise and promise, from now on we shall both wear shoes, for ever and ever, amen.
    And every time Frans start telling me these things, I have questions that must be answered: How can such a thing ever happen? All these things you promise me, how can they come true? You are white, I’m a slave and a
meid
.
    That is when he start explaining, over and over, how those Englishmen that are baas in the Caab, they may be bad, but they are not just bad. Remember, they brought their law with them, he tell me over and over, and what that law say is what must happen, not just in the Caab but in Stellenbosch and Paarl and Worcester and everywhere in this land and even over the sea. And what that law say is that this thing about baas and slave is wrong and it must stop, and soon there will be a day when everything will be different.
    And will we all wear shoes then? I ask him.
    Then Frans say, Yes, that is how it will be. Shoes on our feet so that we can go where we please, we can walk all the way to England if we wish. I shall go and talk to the Landdrost in Stellenbosch, he say, and to the Council of Justice and to the Govment. The world will be a very different place from today, you’ll see, we must just be patient and bide our time, you and I and everybody.
    And Kleinkat too?
    Yes, Kleinkat too, he say.

III
     
Francois remembers his Childhood with Philida and the Stories about the early Days of Zandvliet before MaJanna married into the Brink Family
    YES. TO PHILIDA I would promise anything, ever since we were children. She was the first person I really wanted to be with. By the time I was about eight, so she must have been eleven or thereabouts, I already had the habit of filling a wooden barrel in the kitchen with hot water from the hearth so that she could take a bath while I kept watch at the outside door, because I didn’t want anybody to see