refrigerator. Then she glided onto the seat next to Nathaniel.
âShall we thank the Lord?â Nathaniel made his usual guttural sound, and we all bowed our heads as he led us in a silent prayer. Was I praising God? Not really; my thoughts scattered like dried dandelions in the autumn wind.
When Nathaniel cleared his throat and the prayer ended with âAmen,â my mother spoke. âMamm?â Mom brightened her voice; I recognized the shimmering quality of her sugarcoated incentives. âHow about we go shopping for Nathanielâs slippers after your doctorâs appointment the day after tomorrow?â she said.
âWhat appointment?â The corners of Mommy Annaâs mouth veered down. âYa made an appointment without asking me?â
âI was going to tell you as soon as we prayed and served the food.â Mom unfolded a napkin, stretched it across her lap.
âIs Beth taking us?â Mommy Anna asked.
âNo, Beth doesnât know a thing about it. Iâm your daughter, and Iâll hire a driver.â
âWhy didnât you tell me sooner?â My grandma had become surly the last couple weeks.
âI only found out yesterday afternoon. Dr. Brewster had a cancellation, and I wanted to set up a ride before I told you.â
âThatâs wonderful.â I felt a smack of contrition for not placing Mommy Annaâs health issues ahead of everything else in the world.
âAch, I still havenât located a driver,â Mom said. âI got distracted.â
âMaybe Zach could take us,â I said. âOr would we all fit in his pickup?â
âI doubt it.â Mom wrung her hands. âHeâs such a busy man.â
In a flash, my mind catapulted back to our Seattle home, to the evening she unveiled her well-kept secrets. Sheâd claimedâmy whole lifeâshe had no living relatives, even though she knew Iâd longed for a humongous family. I thought Iâd forgiven, but I didnât completely trust her or understand her motivation.
âMom, do you know something I donât?â
She passed the butter. âNot exactly.â
Iâd endured a lifetime of my motherâs sidestepping the truth, so I pressed her for details. âPlease, if thereâs something I should know.â
âI saw Zachâs truck in Bethâs driveway a little while ago.â
âIt must have been someone elseâs.â I selected a muffin, then passed the cloth-lined basket to Armin.
âI recognized his pickup.â Mom ladled casserole onto Nathanielâs plate. He seemed awfully quiet. I reminded myself he wasnât a chatterbox type to begin with, and heâd no doubt been up since dawn milking his cows.
âThere must be a hundred pickups like his.â I slathered a muffin with butter, watched it soften and melt.
âNo, there arenât,â Nathaniel said. âI can recognize almost every pickup in the county.â
âRemember, Iâve ridden in it.â Mom served my grandmother a scoop of casserole and placed her fork on the edge of her plate like Mommy Anna was a child.
âWhy would Zach drive to his motherâs, when he knows weâre expecting him?â I persisted.
âUnless she summoned him,â Mom said.
âI surely hope Bethâs okay.â Mommy Anna had yet to taste her meal.
âIâm sure sheâs fine.â My mother speared a slice of blood-red tomato with her fork. âMaybe she ran out of sugar.â
âZachâs a mammaâs boy?â Armin said, and smirked. He glanced my way as he served himself chow-chow.
âHow dare you?â I placed my elbows on the table.
âWhat?â Armin shrugged one shoulder. âIsnât mammaâs boy an Englisch expression?â
Mom covered her grin with her napkin.
âYouâre bad-talking my fiancé,â I said, âand I donât appreciate