what Callie expected of him and against which his whole being revolted. Part of his reason for agreeing to run for Sheriff had been to get away from her and from the smothering idiocy of the Hoad clan. Callie, he found, didnât consider herself an individual, only a member of the family that could do no wrong. Originally the Hoads had come from the hill country of Tennesseeâa hard-drinking, hard-bargaining, hard-fighting and hard-luck clan who attributed their own survival to the fact they were one united and loyal family. They were as alien to him as a group of Australian bushmen and hardly more understandable.
He finished his drink, then picked up the bottle to pour himself another. He hesitated, bottle in hand, and then with a kind of self-loathing, he put down the bottle and corked it. He couldnât change any of this by crawling into a bottle, he thought wryly. Iâm like a lone man, heading into the desert, leading a horse thatâs carrying plenty of food and water. I have to go, but I donât know where Iâm going.
At that moment he knew the deepest loneliness.
Ty and Orville Hoad sat in rocking chairs on the veranda of Orvilleâs peeled log house, a jug of pale whisky between them, watching the dusk slowly fade into the night. Buddy, after taking his sister Callie home, had returned and he, his cousins, Junior and Emmett and Big John, all Orvilleâs boys, partly sobered up by the supper just finished, had taken off for town to continue their celebration. Min, Orvilleâs wife, had cleaned up and gone immediately to bed so that the two brothers were alone for the first time that day. Orvilleâs chair was on a squeaky board and he hitched it forward, then stretched out his long legs which he crossed at the ankles.
âTy, I done me some thinking these last couple of weeks. Lordy, I had enough time to do it.â
âAbout hanging?â
âSome, I reckon, but mostly what I was going to do if I got off.â
âYou canât be that lucky twice, Orv,â Ty said dryly.
âYouâre wrong, Ty, I can,â Orville said flatly. He looked at his brother. âYou ainât thought much about what happened today, have you?â
âOnly that at one time this morning I thought you were as good as dead. What should Iâve been thinking about?â
âWhy, the reason I got off.â
âThatâs easy. Like I said, anybody with eyes could see it. Four of them jurymen from over south didnât like being told what to do by a woman.â
âMe, Iâve been thinking past that,â Orville said proudly. âWay, way past that.â
âLike what?â
âWell, if that lady lawyer couldnât hang me, then whoâll she ever get a conviction against so long as thereâs a jury there?â
Ty grunted in surprise. What Orville said was true and he hadnât thought of it that way. He leaned down now, lifted the jug from beside his yellowed panama on the porch floor and took a drink of the fiery whisky, put back the corn cob cork and offered the jug to Orville, who only shook his head. Ty put the jug back beside his hat, feeling the rich warmth of the whisky churn around his supper. He said, âSupposing thatâs true?â
Orville laughed silently. âMe, Iâm not going to keep scratching so hard. I aim to have me a little cash money coming in. I aim to buy more range that will run more cows.â He looked at Ty. âYou got moreân me, Ty, but you got enough? You got all you want? You want to get more?â
âAny man does. What dâyou have in mind?â
Orville leaned forward now. He pointed loosely out into the lowering night. âForty miles yonder is the National Trail. Those big Texas herds will be coming up all summer. Thereâs enough of us Hoads to make up a bunch, Ty. We could stampede every other herd and we got the men to round up and drive off part of every herd.