Marlene said skeptically. Then, âDid you reach Joanna? Your mother keeps asking. Sheâs taking a nap, so you can tell me the truth.â
Con hesitated. âI canât reach her but Iâm sure sheâs fine.â
âSheâs not at home?â
âOr not answering.â
âShould I call her?â
âDefinitely not.â
âI wouldnât make things worse, Connie,â said Marlene. âYouknow Iâm no dope. Iâm right about your mother. The things sheâs been saying! Iâm not even going to tell you. Of course itâs not true.â
âWhatâs not true?â said Con. Now and then something reminded her of the pastâcertainly a complicated past and maybe even a mysterious pastâthat Gert and Marlene had shared for years before Con was even born. She envied them that time, as if she somehow knew that theyâd spent all of it telling secrets they planned to keep from her.
âLook, she should be tested,â Marlene said.
âYou think sheâs got Alzheimerâs?â said Con. âWhat did she say?â
âLast night,â said Marlene, âshe woke up and thought she was in the train. She kept asking me what stop it was.â
That didnât seem so bad. âMarlene, I should hang up.â
âMy doctor is wonderful. Iâm making an appointment. Iâm trying to spare you heartache, Connie, heartache.â
âIâll call you back.â
âBut sheâll be up. I think I hear her.â
âOkay, so long then,â said Con, and hung up before Marlene could speak again. She liked this attention from Marlene. The question of the Western Union office had been unresolved. Con looked in the Yellow Pages but didnât recognize any addresses of Western Union offices in Brooklyn. Anyway, sheâd have to leave the door unlockedâit couldnât be locked without a keyâand would be afraid to return. The phone machine was flashing. It had recorded their call; Con listened to the first few words and erased it. She expected more from Marleneârescueâbut that had never quite happened. As an adolescent, when Marlene stilllived in Brooklyn, Con enjoyed the fantasy that Marlene might someday invite her to come and visit all by herselfâmaybe for weeks at a timeâbut when she was finally invited for an overnight visit, Con had become lost in the tangle of subway lines. There was no good way to travel across Brooklyn to Marleneâs apartment, and eventually she gave up and made her way home. âConnie, Iâm ashamed of you,â Marlene had said.
Now Con dialed her home number again. School would be out, so Joanna might be more willing to pick up the phone. But these days she never spent her afternoons at home, where Con was often working. When Joanna was younger, Con would stop work when she turned up. Theyâd eat and talk, or sheâd drive Joanna somewhere while Joanna talked confidingly from the backseat. Later theyâd return reluctantly to work, Joanna to her homework, Con to the case sheâd been working on, with their papers intermingling on the kitchen table.
Con had a law degree, but after working in a big firm before her daughter was born, she hadnât wanted to return to that lifeâto hours away from home, to pantyhose and skirts. She worked part-time, taking on cases for a womenâs legal project and doing some of the work at home, barefoot. At present she was trying to keep the house for women ex-prisoners from being closed down. It had existed without trouble for two years in a neighborhood just outside Philadelphia, but now neighbors claimed the women were prostitutes, soliciting on the street. Joanna scoffed. She proposed that they drive to the street in the evening and see what happened. Con thought the women probably were soliciting on the street, but should be allowed to stay in the house anyway.
She tried the super