she wanted to go! She wished again for Bethyâs confidence.
âFathir, I alreadyââ
âNo, Pomella!â he snapped. âI wonât even consider it. You could become Unclaimed!â
âButââ
âThe baronâs soldiers will look for you on the road. If youâre outside Oakspring tomorrow, theyâll cut you down.â
Pomella shook her head. âN-no. The baron wouldnât do that. I have the little stone from the Green Man.â
Fathir pushed off from the mantel and loomed over her. She shrank back. âYouâre blind, girl. You think a rock will protect you from those soldiers? Youâre in danger. And even if you made it to Kelt Apar, youâll be Unclaimed when you return home. You cannot fathom what itâs like to be Unclaimed! Living without even a name on broken roads, eating insects, gathering disease. Nobody will touch you or even hand you a scrap of moldy bread. Animals live better than the Unclaimed!â
Pomella clutched her fingers. âBut Iâm of age now. Iâm old enough to make this decision for myself.â
âWhat decision is there to make? Whatever shred of a life you have will be ruined.â
Pomella tried to find the words that would make him understand. She could feel, down to her bones, that the Myst called to her.
âBut I wonât be Unclaimed if I become the High Mysticâs apprentice,â she said.
âYouâll never become a Mystic!â her fathir roared. She started, her heart pounding. âYouâre a blathering dunder if you think otherwise! I donât know what schemes this, this ⦠Yarina has, but by all the Saints, youâll just be a pawn in some game. Becoming a Mystic is best left to the nobility, who have nothing better to do with their lives. Why would you risk your life for something like that?â
She trembled beneath his anger. Despite the fear, she forced herself forward, reckless. âWhatâs so terrible about the Myst? Grandmhathir said itâs something we all can feel and learn to use!â
âAnd it chaps me that she did!â he flared.
Silence drifted in the air like the motes of dust.
âYour grandmhathir did more than just talk about it, Pomella,â he said at last. âShe dabbled in it. I donât know how she got exposed to it. She never explained. But I know she meddled without supervision, and it ⦠it killed your grandfathir.â
Pomellaâs nails bit into her skin. âWhat do you mean? I thought Grandfathir died fromââ
âNo!â he snapped. âShe killed him.â
Pomella shook her head. âNo. No, youâre lying!â
âDonât call me a liar under my roof, girl!â he snarled. âYou donât know a clipâs worth about your grandmhathir like you think you do. It was an accident. Iâm not calling her a murderer. But by my unsainted life, I saw my fathir die because of her meddling. The Myst is for those better than us, Pomella. You and me? Weâre barely good enough for this shite village. We donât own this land. We live here at the whim of the baron. I know you donât like to hear it, but, like you said, youâre old enough to know how it is in the world.â
Pomella narrowed her eyes. Her nails dug deeper as she tried to balance the pain inside with something she could control. âThen why did the High Mystic invite me? Did it have something to do with Grandmhathir? Was she a Mystic?â
Fathir scoffed. âNo, she was definitely not a Mystic. She fancied herself something like one, but it was just blather in her mind. She was a foreigner, as obvious as her black skin. She brought foreign ideas to Moth along with fanciful dreams.â He looked into the cold fireplace. âI once believed all her stories. I even went to find a Mystic once. I left home, just like youâre thinking of doing. I traveled all through the