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obeyed, much as I usually did, out of longing and a terrible need to please him. Still the melancholy had me in its destructive grip. It had been getting harder lately to drown it out.
    I’m trying, Damian. I’m really, really trying to be what you want me to be. To be as unattached as you are and only letting my body need yours.
    Damian’s tongue swished side to side. He nibbled on one lip before lovingly attending its bare twin. His groans punched through my gasps, silencing them as I fixated on him.
    “Are you going to come soon?”
    My breathing hitched. I nodded, knowing his eyes had never left mine despite the silken ribbon concealing them.
    “Tell me how good it feels, baby.”
    My mouth became an extension of his desires. “It feels so good…yes! Please…”
    “Tell me how bad you want it.”
    “I want you, Damian! I want you so badly!” My trembling made me sway forward. He jerked me back with a firm yank.
    “Don’t hide your face from me!”
    Damian then bit the top of my shaven mound. It wasn’t nearly as hard as I had bit him, but it stung nonetheless. I swallowed a scream of shock.
    You always pay me back, don’t you? Is this how it’s always going to be? Tit for tat isn’t much fun anymore—not when I don’t know if it’s okay to feel the way I do for you.
    “Where did you go, Risa? Are you trying to get lost? You shouldn’t…” Damian pressed tiny kisses to my clit after each crooned word.
    My throat caged his name. The pain fired along my nerve endings. Perverse, just the way he’d made me, I rocked my hips faster and chased the pulsing preludes to ecstasy.
    “Are you trying to run away from me? Are you trying to get lost so I can’t find you?” Damian tipped his head up to break off tantalizing contact. I sensed his feral smile. I’m sure it would’ve frightened me if I could see it.
    “I have to tell you something, Damian.”
    His carnal kissing slowed. Warmth permeated each whispered word. “What is it? You can tell me anything.”
    “This isn’t much fun anymore.”
    I immediately twisted my wrists to try to slap my hands against my treacherous mouth.
    Damian merely squeezed them brutally until I stopped.
    “Kissing you like this isn’t fun anymore, Risa? Okay. I won’t do it again.”
    “No! That’s not what I meant!”
    “It better be what you meant because otherwise I will be very upset with you, Risa. Very. Very. Upset.”
    “Damian…I…I…” My voice betrayed me, falling into silence and leaving me with only my thoughts to continue.
    Damian, I just want you to love me. I can and will do anything for you if you just love me.
    He cut through my stuttering. “You don’t like my control of you because you’re starting to feel ashamed. You’ve reasoned to yourself that if I loved you then what we do is okay. Otherwise, it isn’t. Have I summarized your feelings in a satisfactory manner?”
    Damian was so cold. So very, very cold.
    I’m going to lose him by telling the truth. Damian won’t need me anymore. He’ll replace me with someone else, someone else who won’t want his love.
    Someone who isn’t me.
    Tears seeped from beneath the satin ribbon. Panic ate into my self-control. The idea of Damian throwing me away because I failed...it was insupportable.
    I love you more than even I can understand.
    When he prompted me again, I did the only thing I knew how to do anymore. I gave myself over.
    “Please punish me for being so disrespectful, Damian.”
     

10
     
    One Month Earlier
    The restaurant was one of a thousand slick, modern, and forgettable structures. The loud music, tiny tables, and outrageous prices passed for a typical dining experience in the city. However, the waitresses gliding by in black babydoll t-shirts with matching skirts and thigh-high stockings gave me a case of feminine envy.
    Working here would be totally worth it if just for the uniform. I could totally rock that out especially with pigtails!
    My fixation on the zipping shadows