just been diagnosed with breast cancer. Second time round. He was disgusted. He washed his hands of me. He sold up and moved down to the south coast. He said I was on my own, and that he didnât want me bothering them again. I did what everyone else does; I went to Social Services, they gave me a bed-sitter and finally allocated me a one-bedroom flat, really run down but at least I could shut the front door on the world. I tried to find work. My A-level results were good, but I couldnât get a proper job with a baby on the way and no parental support. I took whatever jobs I could get. Cleaning, mostly.â
She laid a hand on Mikeyâs shoulder. âWhen you were born I realized whose son you must be. What a shock! Iâd never in a thousand years have thought that Abdi was interested in me. Heâd been to one or two of our parties in the past but I donât think Iâd ever even had a proper conversation with him. We had nothing in common. To think that heâd been one of the men whoâd raped me! For maybe sixty seconds, Mikey, I hated you ⦠and then you opened your eyes and looked up at me. They say babies canât focus that early, but you did. And I loved you with all my heart.
âI tried to contact your father, of course. I looked in the phone book and there was his address. Not far away. I delivered a note to the house telling them that Iâd had a baby and that he was the father. I didnât expect much. I thought he might make me some sort of allowance ⦠but that was stupid of me, wasnât it? Iâd given him my address. He came to see me there. He said I was trying to blackmail him, to force him into marriage, that it wouldnât work, that he didnât believe me, anyway. He said that if I persisted in trying to damage his reputation, heâd have me killed.â
âKilled!â Ellie repeated.
Vera nodded. âHeâd been spoiled. Too much money. Brought up to think he could do whatever he liked. He told me the family was moving away and warned me not to try approaching him again.â
âBut now he wants to make amends?â
âNo,â said Vera. âI donât think so, do you? Mikey, tell me you understand how it was.â
The boy didnât look at her. He slung the cat over his shoulder and got to his feet in one smooth movement. And removed himself.
Vera grimaced, on the point of tears. But she was a brave lass and used to bearing her troubles alone. So she ducked her head at Ellie and Thomas, and followed her son out of the room and up the stairs. Quietly.
Silence.
Thomas went to stand at the window, looking out on to the garden. âIâm trying to think where I was twelve years ago. July 2002. A sabbatical? Yes, thatâs it. All that summer, I was in a terraced house in Cambridge. Pleasant enough. I was working on that textbook, and my first wife was ⦠That was the year in which she began to fade away. Did Dr McKenzieâs death make the national papers?â
Ellie looked back into the past, too. Her first husband had still been alive, and theyâd lived in a pleasant three-bedroom semi near the church where theyâd both worshipped ⦠the same church to which Thomas had been appointed after his wife had died, when heâd been told to take it easy for a while. As if Thomas ever took anything easy. Even now, in his semi-retirement, he was editing a national church magazine and filling in at local churches when the incumbent was on holiday or otherwise unable to take a service.
She said, âI really canât remember much about the murder. It must have been in the local papers, but I only have a hazy memory of it. My first husband was still alive then.â And kicking. Frank had considered wives ought to know their place ⦠which was in the home. Just as Veraâs father had done.
Ellie had believed him until heâd died and sheâd learned to think for herself.