saying. âIâve been wanting to meet you ever since I read
Mirrors
.â
Her eyebrows arch with curiosity. âYouâve actually read it?â she asks.
âA number of times. Iâve tried to find your other two collections, but so far I havenât had any luck.â
Saskia laughs. âI donât believe this. Newfordâs own Jan Harold Brunvand not only knows my work, but likes it, too?â
It never occurred to me that she might have read any of my books.
âOkay,â Geordie says. âNow that weâve got the mutual admirations out of the way, letâs just try to enjoy the afternoon without getting into a book-by-book rundown of everything the two of you have written.â
He seems as relaxed as I am, but Iâm not surprised. We always do better in other peopleâs company. Itâs not that we feel as though we have to put on good behavior. For some reason we simply donât pick at each other when anybody else is around. He also reads voraciously and loves to talk about booksâthatâs probably the one thing we really have in common beyond the accident of our birthâso I know heâs kidding us. I wish we could always be this comfortable with each other.
We both love books, only Iâm the one that writes them. We both love music, only heâs the musician. That makes us something of a rarity in our family. It wasnât that our parents didnât care for culture; itâs just that they didnât have time for it. Didnât have time for us, either. Iâm not sure why they had children in the first place and I really donât know why they had three of us. Youâd think theyâd have realized that they werenât cut out to be parents after our older brother Paddy was born.
The only thing they asked of us was that we be invisible which was like an invitation to get in trouble because we soon learned it was the only way weâd get any attention. None of us did well in school. We all had âattitude problemsâ which expanded into more serious run-ins with authority outside of school. The police were forever bringing us home for everything from shoplifting (Geordie) and spray-painting obscenities on an underpass (me) to the more serious trouble that Paddy got in which eventually resulted in him pulling ten-to-fifteen in a federal pen.
None of us talked to each other, so I donât know for sure why it was that Paddy hung himself in his cell after serving a couple of years hard time. But I can guess. Itâs hard to be alone, but thatâs all we ever knew how to be. Walled off from each other and anybody else who might come into our lives. Geordie and I made a real effort to straighten ourselves out after what happened to Paddy and tried to find the kind of connection with other people that we couldnât get at home. Geordie does better than I. He makes friends pretty easily, but I donât know how deep most of those friendships go. Sometimes I think itâs just another kind wall. Not as old or tall as the one that stands between us, but itâs there all the same.
8
Holly looks up in surprise when I walk into her shop the next day.
âWhat?â she asks. âTwo visits in the same month? You sure you havenât gotten me mixed up with a certain blonde poet?â
âWho?â I reply innocently. âYou mean Wendy?â
âYou should be so lucky.â
She accepts the coffee and poppyseed muffin I picked up for her on my walk from the bus stop and graciously makes room for me on her visitorâs chair by the simple expediency of sweeping all the books piled up on it into her arms and stacking them in a tottery pile beside the chair. Naturally they fall over as soon as I sit down.
âYou know the rules,â she says. âIf you canât treat the merchandise with respectââ
âIâm not buying them,â I tell her. âI donât care how