through the sheer curtains framing my window before Iâm ready, but at least last nightâs storm has dissipated. My body craves coffee, even knowing itâs probably going to be tea from here on out, which is better than nothing when it comes down to a choice between chugging caffeinated tea or suffering withdrawals.
I put on a bra and tug on a pair of jeans, then grab a sweater before peeking out into the hallway. The quiet in the house makes the squeaks of my boots on the hardwood floors sound like cymbals. Even so, I make it out to the front porch without running into anyone else, and I breathe the crisp sea air deep into my lungs.
This morning, Ireland greets me like I imaginedâa thick mist drapes the boulder-dotted shoreline like a shawl as sunlight winks off of the crashing gray waves. The rain turned to snow sometime during the night, so thereâs still no green, but the pristine white blankets covering the hills add the perfect ambiance to the late-December morning. A white Christmas in Ireland. This trip
canât
be a mistake.
The door creaks open behind me and a sleep-tousled Brennan steps up beside me, a colorful, handmade afghan wrapped tight around his shoulders. Pieces of his hair stick up in chunks and there are reddened creases on his cheeks, but when he smiles at me, thereâs no one more beautiful in the entire world.
âMorning, chicken.â His brogue thickens enough when heâs sleepy to trip me up, but Iâve gotten used to the nickname, which weirded me out at first. Apparently itâs normal to him.
âMorning.â I lean in for a kiss, not caring whether either of us has morning breath. We dispensed with that formality a few weeks after we started sleeping over. He lapses into silence, reigniting my lingering doubts. âAre you mad?â
âAbout you showing up?â He doesnât look at me at first, choosing to squint toward the sea instead. An eternity passes before he shrugs, turns, and slings an arm around my shoulders. âNah. I mean, I was pretty surprised and my mamâs a planner like you, so she might have a panic attack, but itâs good to see you.â
âAlso weâve been together four months now. Itâs time I met your family.â
âAnd you took the initiative, as usual.â He smiles to soften the judgment in his words, then leans down to kiss the tip of my nose. âHow can I get mad at you for being Jessica?â
And thatâs that. Itâs so Brennan; heâs entirely go-with-the-flow and nothing bothers him. Ever.
Which, honestly, is starting to bother
me.
Because if he doesnât care about anything, what does that say about his attitude toward me or the potential for our relationship?
Chris would roll her eyes and tell me to shut up. That weâve only been together four months and weâre twenty years old, so who cares if we donât know right now if weâll get married. If itâs forever.
I look at my handsome Irish boyfriend who does his best to understand me, and also happens to be dynamite in bed, and decide to listen to her. Try to relax and explore, to revel in the new experience.
âYou guys, Mam is going to beat you both if you donât get in here for breakfast,â Molly chirps, sticking a head full of frizzy strawberry curls out into the morning. She eyes us. âAre you two being gross or what?â
âNot as gross as your breath,â Brennan retorts, tossing me a wink before chasing his sister into the house.
I take one last look around the magnificent scene before heading into the dining room, feeling better about this whole thing. Brennan and I might not be there yet, but I still think a holiday with his family, in his country, will make him realize he wants to hang on to me.
The family gathers around the rough, pitted table, along with an addition from last night. An elderly man perches on one end, the sun glinting off the age spots