can have some peace,â she says. With a subtle roll of her eyes Viny complies and waves a hastily cut chunk of cake under Helenâs nose. Like a vagabond, Helen snatches the cake and stuffs it into her mouth. Crumbs shower onto the table, a few of them lingering on her stickymouth and chin. Some work their way into her tangled hair.
Her attention diverted, Helen sniffs about for anything else worth eating. Licking her lips, she hovers next to my plate of eggs.
The room halts.
I can feel everyoneâs eyes upon us. Suddenly Helen turns to the colored child and yanks at her dress, then stoops to the floor and doubles her hands like a ball. Martha says, âAwright, Helen,â and out the door they scamper. A collective sigh of relief heaves all about me.
âWhat was all that?â I demand.
âEggs,â Viny says, turning back to her kneading.
âEggs?â
âHelen likes to hunt for guinea hen eggs in the fields with Martha Washington,â Mrs. Keller explains. âIâm sorry she was such a bother. Sheâs been impossible all morning.â
âIs that why her hair still isnât combed?â I say over a forkful of food.
Viny muffles a snort. Mrs. Keller stiffens. âA person can only fight so many battles, Miss Annie. I donât see the use of sparring over something she canât understand.â
âThereâs a difference between understanding and simple obedience,â I remark.
Mrs. Keller picks up the churn dash and begins to churn almost as fervently as Helen, but her voicesounds wistful as a wilting vine. âThere was a time when Helen seemed to understand everything, Miss Annie. At six months old she could say âhow dâye,â âtea-tea-tea,â and âwah-wah.â On her first birthday she took her first steps. She nearly ran across the room. And such sharp eyes! Why, she could find dropped needles, buttons, and pins before anyone else. Before that fever hit her, she was the brightest child Iâve ever known.â
Iâm intrigued. âAnd now?â
âShe hasnât been sick a day since.â She falters. Her melancholy smile fades. âI donât speak of it often. Living with it is enough. But I suppose you should know.â
âPlease.â
âI donât know how much of Helenâs mind is left,â Mrs. Keller confesses. âShe still says âwah-wahâ whenever she feels water, though I donât know if she realizes it. Everything we do, she follows with her hands, repeating every motion. She can sort and fold the laundry, and never makes a mistake. She feeds the chickens and turkeys, grinds coffee, and stirs the cake batter. One day I found her in the parlor with her fatherâs glasses on, holding a newspaper in front of her face. Even things that donât make sense to her, she imitates.â She stops short. Iâve cornered her, and she knows it.
âThereâs not much Helen canât do, provided she wants to do it,â Mrs. Keller admits, âbut sheâs so miserable I canât bear to punish her.â She stops churning;her grip on the dasher turns her knuckles white. âShe wants so much to understand, Miss Annie. Iâve counted at least sixty signs sheâs invented for herself, but theyâre not enough anymore, as you saw this morning.
âHelen knows sheâs different. She touches peopleâs faces as they talk, and I can see her wondering why her mouth doesnât work the same way. When she canât make us understand her, she moves her lips and gestures so frantically youâd think her little head was on fire with what she wants to say, but all she can do is scream herself into exhaustion.â
âHow often does it happen?â
âEvery day. Sometimes every hour. We canât stand to see it anymore. My own brother says Helen behaves like she has no mind at all. He thinks we ought to lock her up