the fuck does shit like that?
He thinks about that for a minute. "She's right. You know he plays chess at tournament level?" I shake my head no. He's so fuckin smart but I had no clue he was that smart. "Lives his life six moves ahead of everyone around him. Thought he was a lot like you."
"I don't play chess." What the fuck is Kate going to see in me that he doesn't already have?
"Maybe he'll teach you." He laughs.
"What the fuck can I offer that he doesn't?" I'm so fuckin out of my depth right now.
"Tracy fucked with your head. Did they ask for anythin?" He's serious now.
"No just that I go back tonight to talk. Danny talked to Kevin Baxter and explained it to me last night but he wants to talk to Kate with me there."
"Everyone knows how you feel about Kate, clears as day. She loves him the same. Only a matter of time til she starts seein how she feels about you too. He's too fuckin smart and loves her too much to let her get hurt. You and him are close, been gettin closer since the first time. Must have seen the difference in how Kate was with you and figured the best end result."
"Who the fuck else was with them and how the fuck do you know this shit?" Fuck! This is the second time in twenty four fuckin hours I've heard a hint about other people.
"You bein pissed tells me you're ready for this." He fuckin smiles.
"Who the fuck are we talking about Brother?"
He fuckin smiles bigger. "Not my story."
"You fuckin know and won't tell me? I'm your fuckin Brother. What the fuck?"
"Fuck Ben. Take your fuckin hand out of your hair for you rip it right the fuck out." He gets up and closes the door. "Paul at PD. Saw his truck there one time; it was after her first time with you, never repeated. Could've been playin fuckin chess. Wasn't really paying attention before that so I don't know anymore." He laughs. Fuckin Steve.
"Fuck. I don't need to know this, what the fuck is wrong with me?" I put my head in my hands. "I fuckin hate that I don't know what the fuck to do here. I'm not usually the one playing catch up. I had no fuckin clue he was so fuckin smart. He sees fuckin everything and he's only got one fuckin eye!"
"Brother. Calm the fuck down. Danny don't play fuckin games, ain't out to hurt you. You know how fuckin smart he is. Fuckin guy's dyslexic, becomes a fuckin architect. Stupid fucks can't do that shit. What the fuck’s really goin on?"
I look at him. "I've never done this. He's fuckin smart, funny, he's respected by every fuckin one and Kate loves him. Kate's the only woman he hasn't had a partner with. I'm so fuckin out of my league here. I couldn't even keep Tracy happy. She wanted nothing out of life; how the fuck do I compete with Danny for Kate who's fuckin driven and smart herself?"
"Who the fuck said your competin? Listen to yourself Brother. Tracy fucked with your head, your carryin it over to Kate. Danny never competes against anyone, ever. Didn't even know the fuckin guy could shoot for five fuckin years. Not the kinda guy to throw shit in your face Brother. Up at five thirty cause he runs or practices every mornin. Never even heard him talk about it. Seen him practicing when I run. He's a fuckin master, only one knows is Rich. He ain't competin with you. You are. Ain't about him Ben, this is you. What the fuck is the real reason?"
"Fuck, he's dominant." I look away.
He fuckin laughs. "So's Jamie, Rich and Bull. Kevin, Driscoll and Patches ain't fuckin subs but they don't have a problem with it. What's yours?" He's still smiling.
"Fuck you Brother. He's my Officer. It feels fuckin awkward looking at him for the next fuckin move. It hit me last night. He was waiting for me to decide what I wanted to do." Fuck I don't want to talk about this but my Brother is wise and I need the fuckin help.
"Lettin you take the lead fuckin his wife left you