read the whole lot in two days. Then I read them all again.
And thatâs how I came to love mystery stories. Murder mysteries, crime novels, whodunits, thrillers, detective stories, call them what you like, I love them.
After Iâd put all the shopping away then tidied up a bit and done the washing-up and made Dad some cheese on toast, I went up to my room and lay on the bed and tried to read for a while.
The Big Sleep
by Raymond Chandler. In case you donât know, Raymond Chandler is the best detective writer ever. Philip Marlowe, thatâs who he writes about. Marlowe, Private Investigator. Cool, tough, bitter and funny. A man of honour. Mean streets. Mean villains. Mean city. Bad girls, good girls, crazy girls. Good cops, bad cops. Snappy dialogue. Blackmail, murder, mystery and suspense. And a plot with more twists than a snake with bellyache. Iâd read all the other Marlowe stories and Iâd been looking forward to reading
The Big Sleep
for ages. Itâs supposed to be his best. But when I opened it up and started to read, I just couldnât get going. The words wouldnât stick. Iâd get to the bottom of the page then realise I couldnât remember anything Iâd just read. So Iâd start again, concentrating, making sure I read every line, every word, one at a time, nice and slow, and then halfway through Iâd lose it again. I donât know. It was like I had no control over my thoughts, theyâd just drift off somewhere without my knowing. So, I gave up on the book and just lay there on the bed, staring blindly at the ceiling.
I thought about Alex. I was looking forward to seeing her later that evening. She came round most evenings. Sometimes Iâd go over to her place, but mostly she came to mine. We didnât do anything, just sat around talking. I remember the very first time she came round, about a week after weâd first met, I didnât know what to think. I was in a right state. Why was she coming? What did she want? Did she fancy me? What should I do? I was a quivering wreck. But when she showed up it was as if weâd known each other for years. No problem. No uneasiness. No awkward undertones. She didnât even seem too bothered about Dad.
âIs he always drunk?â sheâd asked, after heâd stumbled through the bedroom door, eyed her up, winked at me like a lecher then stumbled out again.
âJust about.â
âMine was like that,â she said matter-of-factly. âThatâs why Mum got rid of him.â
Her mum was an actress. Sheâd had a part in a daytime soap about fifteen years ago. I donât remember the name of it. It was something about a clothes shop, or a factory or something. Anyway, she was in it for about a year.
âShe was quite well known for a while,â Alex told me. âNot famous, exactly, sort of semi-famous.â
âLike whatâs-her-name from thingy?â
âWho?â
I smiled.
âOh, right,â she said. âYeah, like that. People used to come up to her and say: Youâre that one off the telly, arenât you? Youâre ... no, donât tell me, itâs on the tip of my tongue ... donât tell me ...â
âAnd what was it?â
âWhat?
âHer name.â
âShirley Tucker!â she laughed. âA sexy young blonde with a heart of gold. Mum had to wear this great big wig, you know, with loads of mak-eup, short skirts and everything. She looked great. Anyway, a couple of years after I was born Shirley and her boyfriend were
tragically killed
in a motorcycle accident ... and since then Mumâs found it really hard to find any steady work. She still gets the odd acting job now and then â local theatre, adverts, the occasional bit part on TV, that sort of thing â but itâs not enough to pay the rent, so sheâs had to go back to part-time nursing. She hates it.â
âWhy did they kill off her