against the cool wall, while sickness rushed over her. It had been such a long, terrible day.
She heard the door behind her open, then shut. The voices in the parlor receded as footsteps sounded. She felt the pull of a steely hand on her upper arm, turning her, and then she was pressed against scratchy fabric. Strong, warm arms held her. Under her ear, a steady, comforting heartbeat soothed her. She breathed in the exotic cologne and gave in to the need for comfort. It had been a very long time since her uncle had held her like this when her parents had died. In all the years of her life, comfort had been rare.
âMy poor baby,â John said softly at her temple. His hand smoothed over her nape, calming her. âThatâs right. Just cry until it stops hurting so much. Come close to me.â His arms contracted, riveting her to him.
Sheâd never heard his voice so tender. It was comforting and exciting all at once. She pressed closer, giving free rein to the tears as she cried away the grief and fear and loneliness in the arms of the man she loved. Even if it was only pity driving him, how sweet it was to be held so closely by him.
A handkerchief was held to her eyes. She took it and wiped them and blew her nose. He made her feel small and fragile, and she liked the way his tall, muscular body felt against hers.
She pulled slowly away from him, without raising her head. âThank you,â she said, with a watery sniff. âMay I ask what provoked you to offer comfort to the enemy?â
âGuilt,â he replied, with a faint smile. âAnd Iâm not theenemy. I shouldnât have spoken to you as I did. Youâve had enough for one day.â
She looked up at him. âI most certainly have,â she said angrily.
John searched her fierce eyes and wan face. âYouâre tired,â he said. âLet the doctor give you some laudanum to make you sleep.â
âI donât need advice from you. I doubt anyone close to you has ever died,â she said miserably.
His eyes flared darkly as he remembered his younger brothers, the frantic search of the cold waters for bodies, the anguish of having to tell their father that they were dead. âThen you would be wrong,â he said abruptly, dismissing the painful memories. âBut loss is part and parcel of life. One learns to bear it.â
She wrung the handkerchief in her hands. âHe was all I had,â she said, lifting her gaze to his. âAnd if it hadnât been for him, I should have ended up in an orphanage, a state home.â She drew her shoulders up. âI didnât even get to say goodbye to him, it was that quick.â The tears came again, hot and stinging.
He tilted her chin up. âDeath isnât an end. Itâs a beginning. Donât torture yourself. You have a future to contend with.â
âGrief takes a little time,â she reminded him.
âOf course it does.â He pushed back a strand of unruly hair from her forehead. As he moved it, he noticed a smudge of grease. Taking the handkerchief from her hand, he wipedaway the smear. âGrease smears and dirty skirts. Claire, you need a keeper.â
âDonât you start on me,â she muttered, snatching the handkerchief away.
His lips curved in a semblance of a smile. He shook his head. âYou havenât grown up at all. Instead of teaching you to work on motorcar engines, Will should have been introducing you to young men and parties. Youâll end up an old maid covered in grease.â
âBetter than ending up some manâs slave!â she shot right back. âI have no ambition to marry.â
John cocked his eyebrow in amusement. âNot even to marry me?â he chided outrageously, grinning at her scarlet blush.
âNo,â she replied tightly. âI donât want to marry you. Youâre much too conceited and Iâm much too good for you,â she added, with a