remembered my whole rotten day.
My flying fall.
My stinging hands
and knees
and chin.
This stupid, lumpy bed,
which I couldn’t even make.
The swim test.
The mosquitoes.
The no-candy rule.
The rat.
The spiders spinning in the bathrooms
every time I went to pee.
Changing my clothes
in front of girls I barely knew
before swimming
and after swimming
and again before bed.
I don’t want to be here,
I thought.
I hate camp.
I just
hate
it.
I made an important decision then.
I fumbled in the dark for my flashlight
hanging on the wooden frame of my bed.
Then,
very quietly,
I climbed down my bunk ladder.
Gwen was breathing
a slow, whistly kind of breathing
in the bunk below mine.
I tiptoed past her
and got stationery and a pen from my cubby,
then climbed back up the ladder
and started writing a letter.
I wrote:
Dear Mom and Dad,
I have met Esmeralda.
Remember, Mom
?
I have met Esmeralda.
I can’t wait to see you both
.
This is how much I miss you
:
You are still the best parents in the world.
And there’s no better grandma than Grandma Sadie,
who was trying to give me a present.
I still love you from the tips of my toes
to the top of my head
and out into the sky.
Even though you sent me here
with no warning at all
about the candy
or the bug juice
or the spiders
or the life jackets.
All my love,
Eleanor
I sealed that letter in an envelope
and addressed it.
As I was pressing on the stamp,
I heard a noise behind me.
I turned quickly,
scared.
But it was just Hope.
She stood at the foot of my bed and
rubbed her eyes.
“Everything okay?” she asked me.
“Yes,” I said. “Thanks.”
Then I handed her my letter.
“Would you mail this for me?
In the morning?”
I asked.
“Of course,” she said. “First thing.”
My whole body felt lighter then.
I knew I’d be going home soon.
I switched off my flashlight
and fell right back to sleep.
We chose our own activities the next morning.
Joplin chose tetherball.
So I chose tetherball, too.
Even though I’d never heard of it.
And I decided to try to have fun.
Since this would be one of my last days at camp.
We walked together to a field
with poles scattered around it.
Each pole had a ball attached,
hanging from a rope.
When activity time started,
a counselor explained the game.
“Each pole will have two of you,”
she said.
“You are opponents.
If your opponent hits the ball one way,
you hit it back, in the opposite direction.
Don’t let her hit the ball so many times that
the rope wraps all the way around the pole.
Whoever wraps the rope all the way around
wins.
Got it?”
She waited, to see if there were questions.
There weren’t.
It didn’t seem too hard.
“Let’s give it a shot,” the counselor said.
So Joplin and I walked to a pole,
to give it a shot.
“You start,” I said,
being very nice.
She took the ball
and raised it high
and
hurled
it.
It flew in a circle
far, far above my head.
Then sailed back her way,
and she hit it,
hard.
This happened again and again.
So high and so fast,
I never even touched the ball.
It took about five seconds
for her to wrap the rope all the way around the pole.
After she did, she grinned at me.
“Isn’t tetherball
great
?” she said.
“No, it is
not
,” I said.
But I couldn’t help laughing a little.
Because that game had been ridiculous.
Then I turned and shouted,
“I need a shorter opponent!”
I ended up playing a short Honeybee.
I even won two games
and lost two more.
Joplin won six straight
against a tall,
but not tall enough,
Cicada.
I wanted to spend time with the baby goat.
So I chose farm as my next activity.
I asked Joplin if she wanted to come, too.
But she shook her head.
“The barn’s too stinky,” she said.
I knew what she meant.
We’d visited the barn on the camp tour,
and it
was
a little stinky.
But just with animal smell.
Like at the zoo.
“Your nose gets used to