the hugeness of the jackpot was slightly diminishing the enormity of being with Raf, and vice versa. I needed to concentrate on both things and my mind was skittering like a spider on speed.
âNo . . . Shaziaâs busy,â I said. âDonât worry about me. Iâll just go home, I suppose.â
âWhat about that guy, Jack?â he asked, âHeâsââ
âNah,â I interrupted. âHeâs busy too.â
âIt canât be too bad at home. Theyâll be so happy when they hear your news. And itâs late. Theyâll be worried about you.â
I wanted to spend time with him, but I felt like such a wimp . . . a damsel in distress, needing an escort home.
âIâll be fine,â I told him.
But he shook his head. âYou fainted. It could happen again. And those guys, they saw your ticket and where you . . . umm . . . where you keep it. Iâll walk with you, itâs fine. You live up on Windermere Road, donât you?â
He knew where I lived. How? OK, that did seem a little strange. Could he have followed
me
one day? Surely not. I mean, what a coincidence. Also, although it was a completely normal, sane thing for me to have done, in a cool boy it would seem demented. I glanced sideways at him. He was frowning.
Actually, it was kind of helpful to be obsessing about Raf as we walked uphill to my road. It stopped my mind churning around, thinking, eight million! Eight million! Every now and again an
eight million!
would break through and once I let out a little squeak. Raf didnât say anything. His default silencewas infuriating. At last I had a chance to talk to him and he wasnât making it easy at all.
We walked past the big, posh houses, and got to our end of the street â the line of modern maisonettes that someone had squeezed onto an empty plot in the 1970s. I always felt that our house was a bit embarrassed to be living near such impressive neighbours. Well, never mind. I was soon going to be looking at luxury penthouses in Hampstead or Primrose Hill, maybe. . . Yes, Primrose Hill, to be closer to Camden Market, with all the lovely shops and stalls. Iâd be able to buy anything I wanted. One of those pretty cupcake-pink houses. Oh my God.
I dragged my mind back from clothes and jewellery and an amazing, bright purple velvet sofa that Iâd seen last time Iâd been to Camden. In two minutes time weâd be at my house. I had to find something to say to Raf.
âLook â that guy, shutting up the café â was it OK?â I asked. âIâm not going to lose you your job or something? He sounded pretty angry.â
âItâs OK,â he said. âJasper loses his temper really easily. Heâs just a bit . . . a bit tired, thatâs all.â
âJasper?â
âMy half-brother. He owns the café. I have to work for him.â
âOh,â I said. âWhy? My dad owns the bakery but I donât work for him.â
He shrugged. âI just do.â
I was going to ask more but the door opened. Grrr. My dad mustâve been looking out of the window. He was wearing his dressing gown, pale-faced and unshaven. God, how embarrassing. He should know to keep out of the way, looking like that. Just because it was midnight, there was no reason to show himself in public looking like a zomboid hospital patient.
âWhere on earth have you been?â he asked. âYour mumâs been so worried about you. . . Sheâs gone out in the car to see if she could spot you.â
What the hell? âShe threw
me
out,â I said, furious again. âShe told me to leave. Did she tell you that,
huh
? Oh no, I suppose it was all
my
fault.â
âShe said you were rude and obnoxious.â
âSheâs a cow! Sheâs a liar!â
âWell, come in now, anyway. Youâll have to apologise when she gets back.â
âIâd rather
die
!â
Raf