enough to sit under yet. So Iâll just set under Merâs tree to read my letter.
The paper is blue like always and it smells like BarJeanâs favorite perfume. I can hardly wait to sit down as Hobo, who has followed me all the way,lies down beside me. The words make me feel closer to the North that I will soon see.
Dear Pattie Mae:
How are you, Ma, Grandpa, Grandma, and Uncle Buddy doing? I am doing fine and so is Coy. You know we have been sharing an apartment together all year. Well, the big day has come and I am moving into my own place down on 125th Street. Your big brother has met a really nice girl and they are getting married. Thatâs right! Now you will have two big sisters.
Guess what? Her name is Mary, just like Maâs. Isnât that nice?
Now you have to keep this whole marriage thing a secret and not tell Ma. Coy wants to tell her himself. So be a big girl and donât tell her. Okay?
My dear little sister, Iâm glad you want to come here in late August.
I have to go now and I am looking forward to seeing you soon. You, my dear sister, will be my first guest in my new apartment.
Love, your big sister
BarJean
Coy is going to get married! More importantly, BarJean trust me enough to tell me a secret.
I put my letter back in my pocket and tuck my secret in the back of my mind. At least until I see Grandpa. Iâll tell him and he will tell no one. Difference from me.
I stick my tongue out at the bulls that are far away now and start walking as fast as my legs can carry me to get me some breakfast.
2
Dancing White Ladies
I can smell Grandmaâs biscuits as I get closer to the steps that Grandpa built with his bare hands. Their house is painted white with green trimming around the windows. Yes, my grandpa painted the house. He tried to get Old Man Taylor to let him paint our house, too. Ole Man Taylor said no and Grandpa ainât spoke to that white man since then. Grandpaâs cat, Hudson, meets me at the door. He and Hobo sure ainât friends. They fight like . . . Well, they fight like cats and dogs. I open the back door thatâs painted green too, and there she is. My grandma. The woman of the house. And everybody that walks in this door knows that. She ainât no taller than I am. Black, as Grandpa is yellow. Her hair the same color as thesilver quarters that Uncle Buddy gave me to save. He said that Grandma is what men folks call âblack gal pretty.â
âGood morninâ, Grandma. How are you feeling today?â
I know the answer before she even answers. All my life I have asked her the same question and get the same answer.
âChild, Grandma donât feel so good today.â
She just loves saying it, like it was a hymn she and Ma sang in the choir on Sunday morning. No matter how many times you ask, she gives you the same answer. When BarJean and Coy were at home with me, each of us asked the same question and got the same answer. Ma would skin us alive if one of us run in and just said âHey.â We had to line up like soldiers ready to salute our commander and ask her how she was doing. Then we stood there and waited for her to answer. I still have to do the ritual. Sometimes it takes Grandma five minutes to answer. Sometimes ten, if she really ainât feeling so good. Whatever the time, you just stand there and wait.
Grandpa said that was Grandmaâs way of controlling us. He and Mr. Charlie use that word âcontrolâ a lot when they are talking about their wives. They said them two live to tell other folks what to do. I guess they are controlling Grandpa and Mr. Charlie too, because they donât ever say that mess about the women loud enough for the women to hear them.
I wish I were grown so I could do like Uncle Buddy does when he comes in Grandmaâs house. He donât ask her nothing. He just says, âMa Babe, you shoo looking good today.â He said he ainât asking her nothing,