The water sprays feverishly against the wall.
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Hi Jonathan,
I just wanted to let you know that thereâs been a death in the family, and I have to return home for a few days. Iâm sorry for the short notice. I will contact you midweek after the services to let you know when I will be returning to work.
  Weekly crime report is attached for edits.
   Thank you,
   Aubrey Glass
  UpperEastSidePost.com
  975 Lexington Avenue, 5th Floor
  New York, NY 10021
The room fills with steam. I hope he fires me.
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Iâm in the wrong profession. I knew that from the start. Hyperlocal, online journalismâa type of reporting that requires a deep interest in the area you cover, an appreciation for the minutiae of everyday life, and little to no actual reporting, except for maybe a weekly phone call to the Nineteenth Precinct.
Iâm not a reporter. At least I donât consider myself one. Iâm an entry-level content creator, and Iâm mediocre at best. My job is mostly programmed lists and copy and pasting press releases. I always thought Iâd be a writerâa real journalist or a best-selling novelistâbut after college, I realized I have nothing to write about, and Iâm not passionate enough about anything, really. And isnât that the cornerstone of being a good writer? Passion? So as long as I have my fatherâs credit cardâor guilt money, as Danny calls itâI donât mind the repetitive work and low pay.
My most recent submission for the UES Post went something like this:
The Upper East Sideâs Nineteenth Precinct warns locals that there have been a large number of flashers on neighborhood buses, particularly along Third Avenue. Flashers are bumping into riders, and then revealing themselves as a distraction while their accomplice steals the victimâs belongings. To combat such theft, NYPD recommends the following:
     ⢠Use handbags with zippers and locks, and never carry wallets in back pockets.
     ⢠Beware of loud arguments or commotions that may be staged to distract commuters as their pockets are picked.
     ⢠If you are unnecessarily bumped or crowded on public transportation, be aware that you might be positioned for pickpocketing and/or flashing.
     ⢠Never make eye contact with the flasher.
     ⢠If your pocket is picked or you are flashed, yell out immediately to warn the driver or conductor, and alert everyone else that thereâs a pickpocket/flasher team on board.
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My parents still canât get over the fact that theyâll never see my name in print. Iâll only ever have a Helvetica-font byline below the social-media share button.
I slip on a pair of black leggings, flats, an oversized charcoal cardigan, and pop a Xanax, before wrapping a black scarf around my neck and throwing a pair of Ray-Bans over my dry eyes.
When I know Danny is asleep, I leave a note on the coffee table in front of him, and drag my laundry bag out the front door. Itâs not quite the breakup letters I have stocked away in my desk drawer, but rather a toned-down version that promises Iâll be back by the end of the week and asks him not to worry about me, to kindly respect my need for space at this very difficult time .
My heartbeat echoes and I start to get that shaky feeling in my hands. I walk toward Second Avenue to grab a cab and swipe my fingers over my hairline to wipe away the sweat. People stare. Itâs too hot for a sweater and scarf, but I can already feel my neck and chest rashing up. It always happens when I go homeâthis red splotchy flush of rougeâand I know Karen wonât ignore it: Oh my God. What happened to your chest? Are you allergic? Do you need Benadryl? So itâs better to just cover up than get into the fact that the thought of going home makes me break