you. I didnât know Dave had put a sign up. You shouldnât have found out this way.â
CHAPTER FOUR
SO IT WAS TRUE. I STARED at her, and she stared back. I went through the doorway, sat down on the footstool in front of her. âYouâre selling the cottage?â I could hear my voice getting louder. âGramâs cottage? Our cottage? The first year itâs all ours and youâre selling it?â
âI am.â Momâs voice trembled, but Iâd heard that tone before. There was steel in it.
âWhy?â I didnât think I was shouting, but maybe I was, because Mom flinched.
âWe canât afford to keep it, Kyle. The taxes alone are eight hundred dollars a year. And thereâs upkeep. When Mom was up here, she could keep an eye on things, hire someone to put the pier in and out, lime the outhouse, cut down weeds. ⦠You canât manage a property when youâre two hundred miles away.â I didnât want to listen. I tried toanswer, but she didnât give me a chance to say anything. She just plowed ahead. âBesides,â she said, âThe money weâll get from the sale can go into the college fund. Thatâs always been a worry, how we could afford to send all of you, and now that your dadââ she broke off, swallowed, began again. âVickiâs already a sophomore, and when you and Andrea go, too â¦â
âForget about collegeâIâm not going.â
That stopped her. âNot going to college? Oh, Kyle, of course you are. These days â¦â
âNot if we have to sell the cottage to get the money, Iâm not. And Iâll bet Vicki and Andrea wonât go either. Where are they? Do they know?â
âI told them just before you got back. Do you know what Andrea said? âPoor Kyle.â She knew, we all knew how hard this would be for you. And I was planning howâdarn Dave!â
âWhat did Vicki say, and Josh?â I asked bitterly. âIâll bet theyâre glad. They didnât want to come anyway.â
âThey arenât glad.â Mom pulled a cigarette out of the pack beside her on the table. âTheyâre sorry, too. Weâre all sorry, Kyle.â
âSorry doesnât help. Why donât you do something?â Istood up so fast my elbow knocked against the big flashlight we kept on the table for trips down the hill at night. It banged to the floor, but I didnât bother to pick it up.
âThereâs nothing I can do.â Mom said that so quietly I could hardly hear, and for some reason that made me angrier than ever.
âThereâs gotta be something! You give up too easy.â I was shouting again.
âKyle, if youâll just look at this reasonablyââ
âThe hell with reason!â My voice bounced off the cottage walls. âFirst you canât hold on to Dad, and now you want to take the cottage away from us. This stinks!â
Mom didnât answer. Her hand flew up to her cheek, like Iâd hit her. For a moment I was sorry, then I wasnât sorry at all. She wouldnât fight for anything, not the cottage, not Dad. Sheâd just let Dad leave, let him have everything his way. Iâd heard her tell him he could come back whenever he wanted. Sheâd be waiting, she said. But maybe heâd never want to, maybe heâd want a divorce instead. Had she thought of that?
I had to get out of there. I was a time bomb ready to explode. She had no idea. I wanted to throw something, hit something or someone, run until I dropped. I moved back from her, stumbling a little. My foot bumped against theflashlight, and I kicked it, hard. It spun crazily across the room, hit the opposite wall. I had my hand on the door when Momâs voice stopped me. âI couldnât help what happened with your father, Kyle. And I canât help this. Regardless of what you think.â
I went out then. I let