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    Dean’ s already moving again.  A bit slower this time but this isn’t what I want.  I want him to stop.  I know I willingly gave him my virginity but this, well, this isn’t consensual.  Definitely not how I pictured my first time.  Though I have no experience, I know it shouldn’t be like this, an experience this powerful with someone you love, who loves you in return shouldn’t feel so wrong.  I want nothing more than to break our connection.  I try to move him but he won’t budge.  “Dean, please stop.  Dean?”
    “Oh baby, I can’t ; you feel so damn good.  I promise to try to make this time feel good for you too.”  I don’t feel good though; I feel dirty and used.  His lips crush mine but I don’t respond to his kiss.  He begins his attentions to my breasts again in earnest and runs his hands down my body.  There is no pleasure in any of his kisses or touches.  Dean moves in a slow rhythmic motion.  His weight presses me back into the mattress.  I feel cocooned by his body, but oddly the sensation doesn’t provide any comfort from my earlier fear.  I try to wash these thoughts and feeling from my mind.  Maybe he just got carried away before, I try to convince myself.  Dean pumps into me hard a few more times before finding his own release again.  “Damn, baby if it’s always like this with you I’ll never get enough; there’s no way anyone else could feel as good as you.”  I’m so confused by everything that happened tonight.  One moment he was professing his love and proposing; the next…  Well I don’t even know what happened.  He doesn’t even seem to care that he ripped through me like a knife.  Being with him is like riding a roller coaster without a safety belt.

Chapter 2
     
    “Darling , please open your eyes.  Please wake up, please.  It’s killing me to see you like this. Please, darling.”  I faintly hear Gavin pleading with someone but I have no idea what’s going on.  Man, how much did I drink last night?  My head’s throbbing.  I can make out a few other sounds in the room now.  Where the hell am I?  I hear a faint beep and smell the disinfectant.  The bed I’m lying in is really uncomfortable. Why am I not at home?  Did Ian take me somewhere?  Where is Ian?
    “Gavin?”  My voice squeaks.  Why does everything hurt so bad ly? 
    “Darling, I’m h ere.”  I hear the relief in his voice but still have no idea what’s happening. 
    “Gavin, what’s going on?”  I try to blink open my eyes but my entire body seems to no longe r be under my control. 
    “ Celeste, I mean, Lauren, darling, you’re in the hospital.  Do you remember what happened?”  I try to focus on his words.  Hospital?  Why?  Fuck, did he just call me Lauren?  I look at Gavin, confused and horrified by what he’d just said. 
    “ What did you just call me?”  The anger wells up in me and penetrates my words. 
    “Darling, it’s okay.  I know.  We all know.”  His voice barely above a whisper as he looks across my bed at someone.  Oh, it hurts to turn my head but I have to know who else is there.  Marlene!!  What the hell is going on? 
    “ Where’s Ian?  Please, I need Ian.”  Marlene’s face turns ashen and she looks like she is about to cry.  She starts to say something when Gavin cuts her off. 
    “Darling, just try to rest.  We can talk more later.”   His voice cracks with the words.  “I’ll let the doctor know you’re awake.”  I can tell they’re both avoiding the question. I want to protest.  I want to demand that he bring Ian to me immediately but suddenly I feel very heavy like there’s no way to keep my eyes open let alone continue this conversation so I let sleep overtake me.  At least that will provide some relief from the pain, not only the pain in my head; but the pain that has suddenly exploded in my chest like my heart died.
     
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    I feel a hand smooth over my forehead pushing back some of my