back to you. I’ve never been in love like this before and just the fact that you’re here now makes my heart skip a beat. I don’t want a night Jea I want you forever and I will do whatever you want me to do just to make that happen.” James played with the top button of her cardigan wondering what he could do to change her mind and as each one slipped through his fingers he brought her hands to his face.
“Tell me what you’re thinking.”
“James why me? Why now?” Closing his fingers around hers he could feel her shake.
“Please don’t be scared of me. You want to know why and now. I can tell you that quite easy. I can’t live without you near me any longer. The thought of coming back to you is what’s kept me going for months and now I can feel you I never want to let you go.” His eyes sparkled wildly flickering dark in the burning embers of the fire.
“I’ve never took a chance before James. I’ve always calculated my decisions and weighed up every option. With you I feel it’s not possible. I saw the sunrise with you more than once but always as friends not like this. What I am trying to say is that I have one condition. If this is going to happen you have to give me six month’s before any wedding plans.”
She couldn’t believe what had just come out of her mouth. Dragging his fingers over her lips he couldn’t believe what had been said.
“I won’t let you down Jeanie. That I can promise!”
The fire had begun to burn itself out and as the darkness crept in neither noticed the impending gloom. Drunk on confusion Jeanie starred directly at James, “I said yes didn’t I?” Questioning herself James kissed her on her cheek and held her tightly, “I’m glad you did.” Worrying whether this was a reaction to how lonely she had felt she took James by the hand.
“In that case I think you better show me your room.” Grabbing his belongings from the fireside table he led Jeanie up the narrow staircase and as they reached the roof of the pub he opened the door to a huge room.
An arched window looked out into the snow covered street and the big double bed filled the middle of the room. James kissed her again and she had never felt as alive in a long time. It also beat going home feeling helpless and lonely.
He wanted her and he’d been dreaming about this day for months however feeling her tremble again he stepped back not wanting to frighten her away again. “James I’m dirty, full of oil. I need a bath and also I need to tell you something.”
“You can tell me anything?” he walked back over to the fireplace and took her hand softly, “You don’t have to do anything tonight if you’re uncomfortable; I just want you with me that’s all I’ve ever wanted. Listen let me run you bath.” Jeanie sat in the bath with her head on her knee’s she wasn’t nervous anymore in fact she felt the opposite she was quite content for the first time in a while and taking a chance and the doctor was surpassing expectations.
Stepping out of the bath she noticed that he had left his shirt on the rail and having nothing else available she put it on. Beautiful butterflies started to emerge in her stomach and thoughts of him holding her and touching her sent sparks around Jeanie’s body. Checking the corridor she crept back towards the doctor’s bedroom and as she slipped through the door she turned to close it quietly. Standing with her back to the room she felt James’s hands on her. They were warm and smooth as he kissed her softly electric shocks seemed to emanate around every part of her body.
Moving away Jeanie stood in front of the fire place her hair still dripped with water and as James brought a blanket he wrapped it around her shoulder,” I like your shirt.”
Sitting down in front of the fire she awaited his next move instead it wasn’t him. Unable to wait Jeanie kissed him feeling she was living in a fantasy. As the water dripped from her hair the white