âI was outside watching a buzzard with my field glasses. Arenât they remarkable birds? Why, only last week Iââ
I cut her off: âNancy, I need a little help.â
She answered immediately: âName it.â
I grinned into the phone. âI may have some visitors this morning and Iâd like to have a little advance warning if they decide to come. Would you let me know if any cars start up the road toward my place?â
âOf course. But whyââ
âI havenât got time to explain,â I said. âIf anybody drives by your house, just dial my number, let the phone ring twice, and hang up. Donât wait for me to answer, just hang up after two rings. Got it?â
âIâve got it. I must say you sound very mysterious.â
âIâll tell you about it later,â I said, thanked her and hung up.
When I looked around, Joanne was standing in the doorway, her eyes wide. She narrowed them and said, âI was eavesdropping.â
I nodded. âIf they want to find you, this is one of the first places theyâll think of looking. Iâll feel better with a few minutesâ warning.â Nancy lived three miles away, at the foot of my road.
She said, âIâm gladâbecause Iâm sure theyâll be after me.â She went back into the living room. When I got there she was back on the couch with her coffee, lighting another cigarette. She was addicted to menthol cigarettes and strong coffee.
She said, âYou never asked me any questions, but I suppose you must have figured out that they had something on me, to keep meâloyal.â
âYeah,â I said, without inflection.
âIt was in that safe.â
âWhat was it?â
âI donât want to tell you. What difference does it make? Papers, tape recordings, pictures, movie films. It was there. Now whoever took it has it, and Iâm scared of what they may do with it.â
There wasnât much for me to say. I waited. Presently she resumed: âNaturally they know I knew it was there. Theyâll assume I wanted to get my hands on it so they wouldnât have a hold over me any longer. And theyâll assume I told you about it, and you and I cracked the safe, to get it, and got rid of Aiello somewhere. Theyâll assume that,â she added with a shudder, âbecause if fantasies came true, itâs exactly what I would have done.â
âYou mean you were planning to burgle the safe?â
âDonât be silly, I wouldnât know how. But I wanted toâa silly dream, I guess, but it was the only hope I had. I even thought of conning you into helping me do it.â She slanted a smile at me, twisted and nervous. âThe irony is, I didnât do it, but theyâll blame it on me, anyway.â
She made a face, drew her shoulders together, and sat hunched forward with her elbows between her knees. âSimon, Iâm scared to death theyâll kill me for something I didnât do.â
I sat down by her and squeezed her arm. She pulled away, out of my reach. âDonâtâplease. Donât try to comfort me, I didnât come here for that.â
âWhat do you want me to do, Joanne?â
She shook her head violently. âGod knows. Iâm just running blind. I ran to you because I thought you could protect me. Just another stupid dreamâwhat can you do? Nothing. But here I am. Simon, I havenât healed overâIâm still in love with you, if it has to be saidâbut I donât want this madness to be an excuse for us to start things up again. I meant what I said last winter and I want to leave the air clear, not have that hanging between us, because I just donât have the strength. That empty safe has nothing to do with the way you and I feel about each other, or did feel or will feel. I know we gave each other something we both neededâanyway, something I