bedroom.
“I’ll just jump in the shower if that’s okay.”
“Sure, baby, go ahead.”
I stood up and that’s when everything closed in on me. I fell forward and caught myself on the edge of the bed.
“Audrey? You okay?”
I looked up at James, trying to focus, but it wasn’t working. Nothing seemed to be working. Gravity was doing a real number on me.
And then everything went black and I went down.
I lay on the exam table, shaking from head to toe. According to the nurse, I wasn’t running a fever, so I must have been shivering from nerves. Sometimes I hated my nerves.
Personally, I thought that James was overreacting by insisting on bringing me to the doctor. I was probably just stressed out—you know, new job, new relationship, and college on the horizon. And of course, in the back of my mind, I was overloaded with guilt, knowing my parents would never approve of me losing my virginity outside of marriage, much less to a white man. There had been nights the past few weeks I could hardly sleep, worrying about how they would react if they knew. I suppose that I was over thinking it, and that our relationship was too fresh to worry about such things this early in the game.
I’m sure that lack of sleep, not eating right, and my overactive brain was to blame for my passing out. Most doctors would agree, I was sure. I had been a patient of Dr. Shelley’s since I was a little girl. I would just let her be the judge.
A few knocks at the door were followed by Dr. Shelley’s cautious entrance. I could spot it on her face before she started talking.
Something was wrong.
“Hello, Audrey.” She smiled and leaned against the sink, my chart in her hands, clasped tightly to her body. Another moment of awkward silence passed.
“I’m surprised to see you here so soon after your last physical.” She glanced down at my chart. “Just two months ago in fact. Tell me what’s new in your life.”
I shrugged my shoulders. “I’ve been feeling fine. Just a little stressed from starting this new job. And I don’t think I’m sleeping enough. I’m sure I passed out because I stood up too fast. Probably need to eat a little better too. I’ve really been neglecting myself here lately. But that’s going to change because I’m starting college this fall and I need to be on my game because you know I’m going to apply for—”
Dr. Shelley put her hand up in the air and chuckled. “Okay, Audrey, first of all, take a breath and slow down.” She set the chart down and started examining me, lightly feeling my neck and looking in my eyes.
“Sorry,” I replied. “I’ve been a little uptight lately.”
“Uh-huh,” Dr. Shelley muttered, listening to my chest. She went through the works, checking my reflexes and everything. I was just beginning to relax when she asked me a series of questions.
“Any nausea?”
“Nope,” I replied.
“Fatigue?”
“Huh-uh.”
“How about certain foods. Anything set you off lately or just taste funny?”
“Not that I can tell.”
Where in the hell was she going with this?
“How are your breasts? Tender?”
I tilted my head. Now that she mentioned it, my boobs did hurt a little, but that was only because of James man-handling them the way he did. He likes it pretty rough, and as it turns out, I do too.
“Nothing out of the ordinary.”
“Hmm,” she replied. She sat down in the seat and pushed the chart aside on the counter. “Well, consider yourself lucky. So far anyway.”
“Why? Am I supposed to be nauseated and have tender breasts and—”
Oh fuck…
Dr. Shelley flashed a sad smile that tugged at the corner of her lips. There’s no way. There just no way this could be happening to me right now.
Fuck. My. Life.
“Yes, Audrey. You’re pregnant.”
“ I t’s just the flu . Dr. Shelley said I need rest and to drink plenty of fluids. So I’ll probably stay home for the next few days. I don’t want you catching this.”
Little did James know he