thought. Most likely about what had just happened, about Phillip. Phillip, that fucking bastard! I hated him for what he had done to her so much, I found myself wishing him dead, something I had never wished upon anyone before.
We stood by the front door of my apartment and I slid my key card in and Violet ducked inside.
“Do you mind if I take a shower?” she asked as she threw her backpack on the couch.
“I don’t mind.” She walked to the bathroom and I heard the door close.
I sat on the couch waiting for her. Twenty minutes went by and I began to worry, then forty, then a full hour. I decided to check on her, so I stood up and walked to the bathroom.
I knocked on the door. “Violet, are you okay?”
I waited for her to answer, but was met by only silence. I tried the doorknob and was surprised to see it was unlocked.
I walked inside of the bathroom and saw her in the corner next to the shower, naked, curled up in a ball.
I rushed over to her, kneeling down. “Violet.”
She lifted her head and the first thing I noticed were her red-rimmed eyes, swollen, like she had been crying the whole time she had been in the bathroom. Tears were still running down her cheeks. “Why, why did he do this to me? Why me, Chain? Why me?” she asked, her voice cracking from the tears that constricted her throat.
“I don’t know why, I wish I could answer that.” God, what I wouldn’t do to have an answer that would take away her pain.
I helped her up. “How about I shower with you?” She did a half nod and I guided her over to the shower.
I reached into the shower, turning it on.
As I went to undress myself, she let out a high-pitched scream that made me jump. I turned to see her slumped on the floor, her hands circling her head frantically. “I can still feel his hands all over me.”
I felt helpless, destroyed and ruined. To watch her suffer for even one moment annihilated me inside, ripping at my heart, shattering my mind. I wanted to take it away, I wanted to make her better, make her feel safe, but how? How do you take away something that was already done?
I reached down and scooped her into my arms, carrying her into the shower. She was sobbing so hard, tears welled up in my eyes as her pained engulfed me. I placed her on her feet, grabbing a bar of soap and sliding it across her shoulders and back frantically. “I’m going to wash him away, baby, I’m going to wash him away.”
I washed her from head to toe and it seemed to relax her; her sobbing ceased. I turned off the shower and grabbed two towels from the rack, wrapping one around my waist and the other around her. I scooped her out of the shower and carried her to the bed. I laid her down and went to stand when she grabbed my arm. “Please don’t leave me.” I could see the fear and pain in her eyes.
I lay next to her and pulled her to my chest. “I will never leave you, ever.” And I meant every word.
Chapter 1.5 – Violet
Phillip ended up spending only a few days in jail. His high-paid attorney was able to get him bonded and after three months of fighting in court, the judge allowed him to take a plea to avoid further prosecution.
Chain was livid when the judge made the announcement and started yelling out obscenities. The judge seemed very patient with Chain’s outbursts, until he attacked him personally, accusing him of receiving his law degree from a Cracker Jack box. When the judge threatened to throw Chain in jail, my brothers and David forcibly dragged him out of the courtroom, leaving me to hear the finalities alone with my parents.
Overall, Phillip received only probation, where I received a lifetime sentence. I felt cheated, the punishment a slap on the wrist compared to what I had been through and was still enduring. The only positive thing that came out of it was that he now had a permanent record and had to register as a sex offender wherever he went. It made me feel a little bit