Her fingers dug into the soft dough.
âWhat are you doing here?â Her voice was as cold and unwelcoming as she could make it, though a wicked flame seemed to heat her blood.
The screen door squeaked on its hinges as it opened and closed. Still, she refused to turn around. She didnât move at all.
âHi! Weâre making bread,â Jennifer informed him, clearly thrilled by his appearance. âAunt Lara makes the best bread in the whole world.â
âIâll bet she does.â
âYou want to help?â
âI think Iâll just watch.â
Lara glanced at him at last, fighting against the shock of looking into his eyes. Those eyes of his had always been her undoing. A vivid blue, they had seemed able to see into her soul. Whatever secrets sheâd kept from others had never been hidden to Stevenâs searching gaze. She wondered if he could sense her confusion now. She wanted him out of her kitchen, but she didnât want Jennifer to witness the fireworks likely to result from her request that he leave at once.
âI think I hear Kelly stirring,â she said to Jennifer. âWhy donât you go check on her?â
âI didnât hear anything.â
âJennifer!â
Her lower lip curved into a pout. âOkay.â Then Jennifer offered Steven her sunniest smile. âWill you still be here when I come back?â
âI hope so.â There was a dry note to his voice that Lara couldnât miss.
âIâll hurry then,â she promised as she ran from the room. âWe hardly ever have company.â
âCute girl,â he said, when they were alone. âIs it true what she said?â
âWhat?â
âThat you never have company?â
âI donât see that thatâs any of your business.â
Steven shrugged, plucked a strawberry from the basket heâd left and bit into it. Lara had to force herself not to watch as he licked the red juice from his lips. She wanted to tell him to get out, but now that sheâd created the opportunity to say the words, they wouldnât come.
âYou didnât say yesterday. Is she Tommyâs?â
Lara nodded. âHis oldest. She and Kelly are staying here for the summer.â
When he said nothing, she felt an urgent need to fill the silence. âTommyâs doing very well. Heâs just gotten a job with a big firm in Kansas City. He and Megan are there now, looking for a house. The girls will be going out there in the fall. Iâll miss them terribly, and itâs been good to have them here. They love the farm. Itâs not like it was when I was growing up. We have help around here now, so I have time to spend with them. Theyâre at that age where everything fascinates them. The days donât seem long enough to show them everything.â
She caught herself rambling and suddenly fell silent. Steven leaned back against the counter, crossed his jeans-clad legs at the ankles and watched her. Agitated, she worked the dough even harder. At the rate things were going, it would be very tough bread.
âYou still havenât said what you wanted,â she said at last.
âNothing special. Just a neighborly visit.â
Her gaze rose and met his, caught the knowing gleam in his eyes. âNeighbors donât usually wait for years before dropping in.â
âWould I have been welcome any sooner?â
âYouâre not welcome now.â
âIâd hopedââ
âWhat? That the strawberries would soften me up.â
He grinned. âWell, you are harder than you used to be,â he admitted. âI could see that yesterday. It might take more than strawberries, but I figured that would be a start. Iâve been waiting all this time for some sign that youâre ready to let go of the past, but you wonât even look at me when we pass on the street in town.â
The dough hit the counter with a resounding