the pain of Loganâs death hit me again. Tom had gotten off with a sore leg. Muscle damage, he said. I wasnât so sure. Half the time he was in his wheelchair, half the time he was on crutches. I figured he used both for effect.
âStill playing with balls?â he teased.
Alan almost dropped a knife. I didnât bother replying. Tennis was my thing; Iâd come close to making the USTA junior team last summer.
âI hear doubles is the way to go.â Tomâs eyebrows danced up and down his forehead.
Alan hooted. The knives clattered to the floor. âShit, Shields, now look.â One of the knives had hit his thumb on the way down. âShit, shit, double shit.â
Drummond was talking to a group at the back. But she was going to notice any minute. Especially with the blood dripping onto Alanâs jeans.
Alan grabbed a towel, wrapped it around his thumb. Within minutes, the blood seeped through.
âYou might need stitches,â I said. âWe have to tell Drummond.â
âNo.â He was whiter than the milk on the counter. I wondered if heâd severed an artery. Did thumbs have arteries? âYou know what a tight-ass Drummond is about knives. Iâll be kicked out of class and my dad will string me up.â Alan jerked his head to the towel. Blood was dripping to the floor. âDo something!â
I grabbed a clean towel from the counter and removed the soiled one. My breakfast waffle flipped in my stomach. Talk about ugly. The tip of Alanâs thumb was hanging by a string of skin.
I slapped the clean towel on before anyone could see. âGet Drummond!â I squeezed Alanâs thumb, applied as much pressure as I dared. âHe needs a doctor.â
Then I felt it. The same buildup Iâd felt after the bee sting. Only this time it happened quickly, like a movie on fast forward. And this time I didnât pass out.
The voices of my classmates faded; the color of the fruits on the counter blurred. Suddenly the presence was there. Making me bigger, fuller, softer.
And warm. Especially on the palms of my hands.
The moment became an hour, and the hour turned into a day. Time hummed, stretching up and out, wrapping itself around me, around Alanâs thumb. I felt grand yet small. Love-filled. Perfect. I knew Alan was perfect too.
I heard Drummondâs voice off in the distance. âWhatâs going on?â
Tom said something about the knife slipping. Marie added that the gash was ugly and deep. As soon as they spoke, the hum started to fade. The whoosh tugged at me.
âLetâs see.â Drummond reached for the towel.
The instant she touched us, it all stopped. Time snapped into its small self, like an elastic returning to size. The presence left. So did the hum.
As Drummond unwrapped the cloth, I knew exactly what she would find. A cut, for sure, but no stringy bits, no hanging thumb. I started to shiver.
âYou must have thick blood,â Ms. Drummond said, staring at the gash. âThe bleedingâs already stopped. But we still need to get it looked at.â
After Drummond took him away, Marie and I wiped the counters. Or Marie did. Suddenly I was so tired I could hardly stand. âThat was major, â she said.
âIt wasnât that bad.â I didnât want to think about what it meant if it was that bad.
Tom wheeled over with more paper towels. âAre you frickinâ blind?â He stared at me so intently I wanted to squirm. âThat was a slice and dice. Alanâs thumb was practically off. And then it wasnât. It was totally weird.â
Weird was right. Even weirder was the fact that my palms were still hot.
I didnât want to think about what that meant.
Chapter Five
Alanâs slice and dice totally freaked me out. Something had happened in that foods room. Iâd felt it. Did that mean I was a healer like M.C. said? No way. I was as normal as a slice of cheddar and just