their legs off the floor and onto their chairs. John squeals and pulls his legs up, too. His knees bang the bottom of his desk, and a container of pens and pencils goes flying.
Chase and Taylor and Lexie get out of their seats to look for Lester. So do other kids.
I go to Joseph and say, âLetâs look behind the bookshelves. He likes dark places.â
We go, and we look, but Lester isnât back there.
Joseph sets off to search somewhere else, but I grab his wrist.
âUm . . . we should keep a lookout,â I say. âJust in case.â
Joseph pulls his eyebrows together. Then he lets them relax. He slides his back along the wall and sits down.
âTaylor is loud,â he says.
âI know,â I say, sliding down next to him.
âEven louder than he used to be.â
âI know.â
There is chaos all around us, but Joseph and I have the book nook to ourselves. We watch people shriek and run around.
âDoes Lester escape a lot?â Joseph asks.
âNot a
lot
a lot. Maybe once a week.â I straighten my legs. âMrs. Webber keeps trying to give him away, but nobody will take him.â
â
I
would, except thereâs no way my mom would say yes,â Joseph says.
âSame with mine,â I say. âAnd itâs too bad, because Teensy Baby Maggie needs a pet, but oh well.â
âHuh?â Joseph says.
âTeensy Baby Maggie,â I explain. âShe needs a pet.â
âShe does? Why?â
For a second I canât come up with an answer. Why
does
Maggie need a pet?
I almost say, âBecause I said so,â but thatâs the kind of thing a kindergartner might say, or even a preschooler.
âShe just does,â I say.
âWhat would she do with it?â
âBe nice to it. Feed it crackers. I donât know.â
âFeed it crackers?â
âThat partâs not important. The important part is that my mom said no to five thousand of my good ideas, but guess what? She said yes to a bird!â
Joseph tilts his head. âWhy a bird?â
âWhy not a bird?â
âA parrot?â
Iâm getting frustrated, and my fingers tighten into a fist. âNot a parrot, because parrots donât live in the wild. My momâs one rule is that I have to catch the bird myself.â
âHuh?
How?!
â
â
Agh!
I donât know! Maybe with a butterfly net! But if I do catch a birdââ I open my fingers and press them hard on the floor. âI mean,
when
I catch a bird, I get to keep it.â
âCool,â Joseph says. He hesitates. âBut . . . I thought you were giving it to Baby Maggie.â
âWeâll share. Also, Lexie thinks I canât, so I
have
to catch one to prove her wrong.â
Joseph doesnât get it, I can tell. Then I remember that he doesnât know about our recitations last week. Mrs. Webber made us do an act of kindness, and I wanted my kindness to be a pet for Maggie, only it didnât work out. The bird-catching bit was part of my speech to the class, but Joseph didnât hear my speech.
I press the back of my head against the wall.
Joseph really was gone a long time.
He missed
a lot
.
I donât mind helping him catch up, and I donât mind all his questions. Not truly. I
do
mind everyone else in the world hogging his attention . . . but that isnât happening this very second, so why do I feel like thereâs a hole in my chest?
I feel this same way at bedtime every so often, after Mom and Dad kiss me and say good night and then go away. Itâs a feeling of being lonely, and it comes to me with a shock that I miss Joseph.
I miss him even though here he is beside me. I DONâT
KNOW
WHY.
I look at Joseph. Joseph looks at me.
âFound him!â Chase proclaims, holding Lester in the air.
And
yay
for Lester, I guess, but I still feel lost.
CHAPTER FOUR
O n Wednesday, I come up with an