kind you make a wish on.â
âYou want to wish on it?â I asked, watching the feather flutter in my hand.
âLetâs both make a wish, at the same time. Ready?â She crossed her fingers and squeezed her eyes shut. âOne-two-threeâgo.â
Iâd already made my wish the night before, so I watched Meadow Larkâs lips move to hers. When she was finished, she opened her eyes and asked, âAll done?â
âI didnât make a wish.â
âThen go ahead.â
I shook my head. âNo, I want to save my wishes.â
âSave them for what?â
âUntil I really need them,â I say. âLetâs just send it off now, okay?â
âRiver, whatâs the matter?â Meadow Lark asked.
What was the matter was always the sameâTheron. Iâd wished for more than two months for him to come back, and he hadnât. All the talk about wishes and miracles was just talk. What good would it do to wish on a feather?
But all I say was, âNothing. I just donât know the wish rules.â
âThere arenât any rules. Itâs just a game.â
âSo go ahead and blow it away.â
Meadow Lark shook her head. âNo, you float it on the river.â
âI never heard of that. Did you just make it up?â
âThatâs what they do where I come from.â
âWhere you come from?â I asked, puzzled. âI thought you didnât have a river in Phoenix.â
âWell . . . ,â she say slowly, âIâve lived in lots of places. And in the other placesânot Phoenixâthatâs what we did. I canât believe youâve never heard of it.â
âWe must be slow,â I say, and glanced at the feather ruffling in the light breeze. It looked alive.
âSure you donât want to make a wish first?â she asked.
âOh, okay, Iâll make a silly little wish.â That way, I figured, I wouldnât be disappointed when nothing come of it.
âNo, you have to make a big, crazy wish that youâd never, ever believe would come true. It has to be so big and crazy that it hurts to make and would break your heart if it didnât come true.â
Too many hearts were already broken over Theron, so I thought of something else that could be big and crazy. Then I looked at Meadow Lark. âOkay, I have one.â
âRemember, make it big and crazy,â she say.
I closed my eyes and made my wish. I want to know my real mama.
When I opened my eyes, Meadow Lark say very seriously, âNow we put it in the water.â
It was such a pretty feather, pretty enough to keep, pretty enough to put in your pocket as a lucky feather. It would be a shame to waste it down the river. âSure you donât want to hold on to it?â I asked.
She shook her head and took the feather from me. âNo, it has to carry those wishes away.â
Then Meadow Lark stepped into the river up to her knees, out far enough for the current to carry our wishes a long way. She set the feather on the surface, and the river snatched it and whisked it off.
I watched the feather slide and twirl on the water until I couldnât see it anymore, letting my big, crazy, silly wish about my mama last only as long as I could see the feather. After it was gone, I wished Iâd tucked that pretty feather in my pocket, so I could keep it in my ballerina box next to my emerald ring.
The pink light of dusk hung in the air when I got home, and as soon as I stepped inside and smelled onion casserole, I remembered the milk.
âDid you forget something, River?â Mama asked me, her hands planted on her hips and her mouth a straight line. âJust when I was at my last drop. Now Iâll have to go out. Where . . .â She stopped and sniffed the air. âYouâve been down at the river. What have we told you about that?â
I nodded. âIâm sorry. I just forgot about