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realizing I was still making circles on his hand, I lowered my head to ours hands and stopped the movement. In that moment I thought about why he just didn’t move away and why he asked for me to stop it. He could easily just turned away.
    Hearing his rapid breathing directly in my ear sent chills throughout my entire lustful body. “What if I don’t want to stop?” I asked, lifting my head and being inches away from his lips.
    Hearing my words, Thomas closed his eyes, turned his head from me and took a deep breath. “Please, don’t.”
    “Don’t what?” In an involuntary movement, my hands went to his chest, resting on a wall of pure muscle. “God, why are you so cold?” I asked again, not letting him answer my first question.
    “I-I was outside. I took the thrash away,” he murmured, still not looking at me. A few seconds passed without any of us say anything. I only stood there gazing at his neck with this intense feeling of kissing that glorious and inviting skin while he still looked away with his shallow breathing. I loved the way his chest moved against me. With a slow movement, I placed my palm right on his heart, where hard thumps made the hairs on my body stand up. “Is that what you do?” The sound came strong, startling me.
    “Do what?”
    Finally turning his face to me, inches from my lips, he said, “Seduce the father of the children you take care of.”
    It was like a kick to the stomach, a knife on the back or a slap in the face – just pick one. Ever so slowly, I slid my hands from him. Without taking eye contact, I tried my best to not let it show how he had affected me. I left my face blank.
    “This is my first time as an Au Pair,” I whispered. “I surely told you…” and then my voice broke. “…that, Mister Abram.”
    Silence.
    One Mississippi. Two Mississippi. Three Mississippi.
    “I apology-”
    “I’ve just never-” we said at the same time. I swallowed and when he didn’t make a move to say anything, I went for it. “I’ve never felt something like this before. I’m sorry if I made you uncomfortable,” I pretty much said it to his chest. It was difficult to say something like that to his face where seconds ago he had practically verbally assaulted me.
    “Never felt what before?”
    Frowning, I gave him my back. Now that I had opened that door, I couldn’t just close it. Embracing myself with my arms, I did my best not to look like a scared little girl, even though I knew I was one at that moment. I was in complete darkness with a man, not a boy, where I was about to say something that could completely send me packing. I could never see Rachel again.
    Turning to him, I was about to say, hey forget it, it’s nothing . I would laugh and everything would come back to normal, but then I saw his face, his expression toward me. I knew his wife had passed away a few years ago, and I knew he felt lonely in the first week I had working with him. It was there, written on a face that I haven’t even seen smile.
    Sure, I saw him laugh and smile with Rachel, but it didn’t quite ever reach his eyes. He stood there with only a pair of jeans and a gray t-shirt with a possession look in his eyes. Like he wanted me the same way I wanted him. Realizing I wasn’t the only one feeling things, I decided to take a bold move.
    As if I was about to be bare in front of him, I let my arms fall. “I feel this…hm…attraction. I don’t know how to describe it, I just feel this knot inside my belly every time I look at you. I have this need to touch you in which I have to control it.” There was a few seconds of silence. “It feels like I can’t breathe.” He took a step forward and then another. “Like at this exact moment. My body is pulsing…” I could barely whisper with his proximity. “…begging for you…” Then, my back was on the wall, along with his hands inches away from my waist and my head. His knee touched the inside of my thigh, making me open up for him while I