âI mean . . . come on, Dad! How else? The way you talk to me every day, you make it pretty clear how disappointed you are in me. Even though Iâm there, every day, down at the market, working as hard as any employee.â
âYouâre supposed to be working harder! Youâre supposed to be working like someone whoâs going to own it all one day! Youâreââ
And James could take it no longer. Tossing aside decorum, uncaring of his relative status in the world, losing sight of who he was and what he was supposed to be, Jamesâs voice rose above both of theirs, silencing them with his outrage: âFor crying out loud, a woman has died here today! Will the two of you please knock it off ? Show a little damned respect!â
Thomas and his father were both stunned into a brief silence. It was Thomas who found his voice first as he said, very softly, âYouâre right.â
âHeâs right ?â Thomasâs father was now speaking once more, but he was reacting very differently from his son. â Heâs right? Heâs a servant!â
âEven servants get to be right now and then, Father. Iâm sorry I spoke so harshly to you. I know that youâre doing the best youââ
His father wasnât paying him any attention. Instead, his gaze was fixed upon James, and James felt his knees going slightly weak. âYour services will no longer be required here. Get out.â
âJames, stay put,â Thomas said immediately. He turned to his father. âJames is my servant. More than that, heâs my friend. Heâs two years younger than I am, but heâs a yard smarter. Heâs not going anywhere.â
It looked as if half a dozen replies danced across his fatherâs lips. Ultimately, he said nothing at all. Instead, he turned and strode out without a word. Thomas, who had been standing, sank back into the chair with a low sigh. He slumped back, putting his hand to his forehead. âIâm sorry you had to see that, James.â
âIâve seen worse,â said James. âYou want to tell me what happened?â
âWhy not? Who else am I going to talk to?â he said mirthlessly. âYouâre pretty much all I have in the world right now.â
James chuckled at that. âIâve been telling you for a while, you need to find a girl.â
âThere are plenty of girls interested in me,â said Thomas, and he sounded more annoyed by it than anything. âThey see me as the son of a wealthy merchant and figure Iâll be able to provide them a lifestyle theyâll find pleasing. I want a girl who loves me for me, not for my fatherâs purse.â
âThatâs fair enough, and Iâll wager youâll find her.â
âReally.â It was not a question but rather a flat assertion of skepticism. âJames . . . even my mother wasnât in my corner. So I think youâll understand if I donât hold out a lot of hope in that regard.â
âShe wasnât in her right mind, and you know that.â
âShe may not have been in her right mind, but that doesnât mean she wasnât speaking from her heart . . .â
âYour mother loves you . . . loved you,â said James. âYou must know that. So does your father, although I imagine itâs hard toââ
âDo you believe me?â
The question caught James off guard. âBelieve you?â
âYes.â
âAbout what?â
âYou know about what.â
âI swear to you, Thomas, I really donât.â
âThe balverine.â
âOh. Well, Iââ
A dagger was hanging at Thomasâs hip. James had grown so accustomed to it that he had paid it no mind, but now Thomas pulled it out of the scabbard and held it up in front of him. âStephenâs dagger,â said Thomas, his eyes fixed upon it as if it were a hypnotic flame. âHe dropped