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one,’ Freya spoke, blowing her nose.
    You didn’t put up with snide remarks and knock backs because it was fun, you put up with them for one reason and one reason only.
    ‘ Because who else is going to look twice at me?’ Freya answered plainly.
    ‘ Freya, now you are being silly,’ Emma exclaimed.
    ‘ I’m not, come on Em, look at me! I’m a size twenty, there I’ve said it. No point denying it to myself any more. A size twenty with double d boobs and thighs any rugby player would kill for. My waist is non-existent, it seems to blend into my bust more every day and I have bingo wings. That might be mildly amusing if I actually played bingo,’ Freya said and she snatched up her drink and sucked furiously on its straw.
    ‘ Freya…’ Emma began, trying to protest against her friend’s words.
    ‘ I’m surprised Russell stayed with me as long as he did. My God, he must have been so ashamed. People probably thought someone like me was all he could get - how embarrassing,’ Freya continued.
    ‘ Freya, please stop this,’ Emma begged her.
    ‘ The reason hearing what he said upset me so much was a) because I could see the venison steak I’d envisaged eating disappearing from the agenda and b) because what he said was true. I am large and I am ordinary. In fact why am I angry with him for telling me how it is? I should have just shrugged it off and ordered a salad,’ Freya carried on as she thought back.
    ‘ Freya! Stop it! If he can’t see you are beautiful, then he isn’t worth a second thought, let alone tears in your cocktail! You have the most amazing eyes; you have a fantastic smile and more importantly a brilliant sense of humour. And if we are being really honest with each other here, I always wished I had half the confidence you have. You always know what to say in every situation, I’m just not like that and I wish I was,’ Emma said to her friend.
    ‘ Now I know why you’re my best friend and that was exactly the right thing to say in this situation. Oh I don’t know, I just never seem to be able to get it right. Or should that be I never seem to be able to get Mr Right. Before today, before finding out how Russell really sees me do you know what I did? I looked at one of those Weight Watchers adverts in the newspaper. I picked up the phone and I almost dialled the number,’ Freya spoke.
    ‘ Freya, you hate diets and not only that, you are the absolute worse dieter I know,’ Emma remarked.
    ‘ And doesn’t it show?’ Freya commented.
    ‘ I didn’t mean that like it sounded,’ Emma added hastily.
    ‘ No, it’s OK, you’re right. I’m a great eater and lousy on nutrition. I still can’t walk past a bakery without sampling a sausage roll just to see if it tastes as good as it should - in fact often they call to me,’ Freya told Emma.
    ‘ So why even think of Weight Watchers?’ Emma queried.
    ‘ Because perhaps trying to find someone who takes me as I am isn’t going to work. Maybe I need to change things. Perhaps I need to face up to who and what I really am and take control of that,’ Freya suggested.
    ‘ Absolutely not! There’s nothing that needs to be changed apart from your attached status and the offloading of that creep! Freya, after all you’ve been through I am not going to let someone as superficial as Russell make you feel bad about yourself. And while we’re on this subject, why haven’t you mentioned any of this in our phone conversations?’ Emma demanded to know.
    ‘ I told you, it didn’t seem important. Anyway there always seemed to be other stuff going on and, like I said, over the past month or so he’s been so attentive it made me reconsider whether the relationship had really got The Stutter,’ Freya spoke.
    ‘ Do you think there was someone else?’ Emma asked bluntly.
    ‘ Female or equine?’ Freya enquired.
    ‘ He isn’t still betting is he? I thought you said he’d stopped that.’
    ‘ Do gamblers ever stop betting? I think it’s a